I am 23 years old.. I live with my parents.. i have no job..! someone would say that im a pretty normal girl.. that my life isnt that bad... But for me it is..!
I have never had a relationship...am still a virgin.! I think that am afraid to get too closed to a man..because if I do he'll hurt me. I dont trust men. Every man is a cheater.. Its in their nature.. I 've seen it so many times. When I was younger I believed that I would find a handsome nice guy that would be truly madly and deeply in love with me..just like in the movies. But that only happens in movies. In real life there is only pain and disappointment. I would like to feel what to means to be in love..but i dont think i ever will..i dont believe in love.! There is no hope for love..
I have no job at the moment.. My parents support me. If..and when i find something I am sure that it will be a low salary job..that will only pay the bills..!
I dont have a social life.. I couldnt it afford it.. Plus..I think that im really a boring person with no personality.. I hate myself for that.. I know that! But I dont think I can make anything to change it.
I am 23 years old. I think mu life goes from bad to worse.. I have no hope for my future. I will end up a spinster..all alone in the world. I know that i could appreciate some things in my life.. i am healthy..i have parents who love me..! But thats not enough.. I am not happy.. and I think that I will stay that way for ever.. I have no hope.. I WANT to live and experience so many things... but I dont think I'll ever get the chance to do so.. I keep sayin to myself 'patience..things will change..it will get better' but it doesnt. My life is boring. I have nothing to expect. Only Pain and unhappiness..
I surrender... I dont hope for change anymore.. My luck wont turn.. I have made peace with the fact that I will be always alone and unhappy.. I am 23 years old.. You would say that am too young to think like that.. But thats how things are.. Thats why I hopellessly surrender....
I dont know Why I ve written these here.. I just wanted to let it out for once.. Maybe fo myself to read it.. This is how i feel..I am hopelessly surrendering! | |
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True love is a real thing, just because you haven't experianced it yet doesn't mean it doesn't exist! Keep applying to jobs, apply yourself to something your skilled at, everyone has different gifts, some people are good leaders some people are musicians etc.. You got something special you just might not realize it yet.
You can make friends at all sort of differnt events and stuff. For instance, if you like reading, join a book club, you like cooking, join a cooking class, even volunteer somewhere, you'll get good job experiance and you might meet a great guy. Join a church, get involved in the church through a bible study group etc.. Theres tons of different opportunitys, just apply yourself, be positive, people are attracted to that.
It also sounds like you may be clinicly depressed. Thats something that can be tough to fix. You should see a physician and try anti depressents which will balance your serotonin levels (i think thats the medical term). A lot of people need anti depressents. In the mean time you can try getting some exercise in, through studys its found that exercise is great to combat depression and other emotional problems.
Lastly, I'm a christian and I have to testify to what Jesus can do. For instance Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:29. When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful! Many people can testify to how God has changed them. Ive never heard of anyone regretting putting their faith in jesus.
Jesus knows your pain, because he went through all the different pains possible when he was tortured and then nailed to a cross. He layed down his life for our sin, so that we can have eternal life in heaven. All we have to do is accept him as our lord and savior and ask for forgiveness for our sin. Jesus loves you with love that cant be compared, he loves you so much that he died for you. He can change you. He changes people every single day. You can say that one of his job descriptions is "Life Changer". He knows your trouble, he cares for you, and he wants you to know him. He will comfort us when there seems to be no comfort available. He is our friend when everyone else seems to not care, he provides for us when we are without, and he gives us strength when we are weak. He washes away all our sin when we have lived sinfilled lives. He is offering the gift of everlasting life in heaven free of charge, its your choice whether you accept his offer.
Whether you believe in God or not I hope that things will change for you. Keep your head up, dont give up, bite your lip and give life your best shot.
God bless
20's are supposed to be tough. I am 21 and its tough for me. But your damn straight I am not gonna accept a life of misery and give up and just make peace with aloneness and mediocrity. Life is about improvement and working hard. Besides If you read some stories here on this site its true that If you accept that kinda life of a spinster it will turn true. Because people here are still complaining of deep depression and loneliness and nothing ever working out at 65. You know what thats a sad way to live.
My advice to you:
Get out of your house. Volunteer, join clubs do something.
It seems to me that all you do is stay at home and do nothing and then complain about it.
And second of all with that attitude you have towards all guys being assholes. Your never gonna get a guy. Not the man of your dreams; not even a Good Guy who's confident, funny, who actually has good chemistry with you. Your just gonna fuck it up with that BAD ATTITUDE. It will shoo not just guys but everyone everyone away.
Lastly. Change that attitude girl; get out of your house; Actually apply for jobs becuase I have a feeling you don't, make some money and spoil yourself, learn to be open. Hell Check out Davidwygant dating site. Your gonna learn all your dating issues are just your fault and in your control to change.
If you give up now you'll end up complaining and whining at 80 except you have missed your whole life. Idnt even think you want that.
hows the "job search" going?
lol!
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