It all started around the end of 8th grade when my friend introduced me to pot, i started smoking with him almost every day of 8th grade when i noticed my grades dropped from C's and B's to straight F's. When summer came around i started smoking everyday about 4-5 times, i completely forgot about my old friends or it was just that they didnt think i was the same anymore. So i made some new friends right? these friends treated me like shit, they used me for weed they made fun of me they ditched me and tried to steal every girlfriend i ever had. On top of that i cant get a girlfriend because im extremely short and everyone makes fun of me. about 4-5 weeks i was beat by my dad and kicked out of my house. And on top of that i got expelled from my high school for drug abuse. So now im a homeless 15 year old boy expelled from school with no money, job or friends. no one loves me. and even my old friends stopped talking to me, i never did anything wrong. i spend everyday in loneliness waiting for someone to talk to me. even when i try to talk to someone they never respond or just run away from me. ive tried to commit suicide over 5 times, i hate myself, i have no motivation to do anything in life. i dont feel like i was meant to be here, i didnt ask to be born. if anyone reads this ill probably be dead tomorrow as i plan on these being my last words.
i wish i could of done better, im sorry.