ive been alone for 14 years...ive NEVER had a boyfriend..im cursed..im really beautiful and men just hate me. its weird how i cant get a boyfriend..im a virgin at 34...I look like a model im super hot nice caring loyal monogamous...an amazing person but i cant get a boyfriend...ive been looking for a guy for 14 years-- i think that's crazy. Men aer insecure and hate me and are jealous of me...and just insult or put me down. I have NO friends b/c women are jealous of me...i live in UTTER loneliness. I live alone, i exist alone with NO one NO FRIEND and everyone in my life who know is extremely abusive to me and treats me so horribly. I havent been on vacation in 20 years or had ANY fun or friends. I suffered for 14 years straight with NO FUN NO FRIENDS NOTHING JUST HELL... people HATE my presence and are jealosu of me and just treat me like crap. Everyone abuses me--ive never met a person who gets treated worse by people than I do. Most people bully or mistreat me...its like im this weird target and EVERYONE picks on me cruelly in different ways. im really friendly open loving but people are so cruel to me there is nothing i can do abotu it. im ALWAYS alone. ive NEVER HAD SEX>...its SO HARD...the ONLY male i sort of dated---REFUSED SEX with me. he was a sadist who just wanted to control me and use me as a puppet to torment mentally thats it. My life is meeting sociopaths who use me to torture mentally nothing else. Males will say to me "youre TOO beautiful" and reject me. THis is my life-- rejection abuse mistreatment 24/7...im not exaggerating this is my life...i have NO ONE and everyone in my life ABUSES me. on top of all this hell i hjave SUFFERED HORRIBLY...people have done extremely CRUEL things to me and my life and put me thru MAJOR HELL...my family has destroyed my life thru the legal system and in other ways...for 10 years...i went through HELL...my own mother did this to me...i suffered horribly...i cant get into the details..my family still has control over my life in various ways and uses it to abuse and msitreat me. everyone i know almost just wants to control and abuse me...im this target/puppet for these sick twisted people. I cant do ANYTHING to change my reality...i try to meet a guy-- i can't...i try to make friends it wont happen and then these sadistic sick people jsut do mroe bad to me...im trapped in this weird isolation and horror and i cant stop it...its been 14 years of this hell and it hasnt ended..NOTHING HAS CHANGED except that ive been through more loneliness and suffering....i cant believe NO guy wants to be with me and im this raelly hot girl too and so nice. EVERYONE just picks on me and treats me like badly....im cursed and there seems to be nothing i can do to change it... | |
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O Allah, open the heart of Melanie and all non-Muslims across the world to the truth and the beauty of Islam so that they achieve everlasting bliss and salvation, Aameen.
i tried being a model..i got rejected by photographers...no joke...its a bad industry trust me but i had something unique on the table...but i got absued rejected really badly....i also was an amazing model and peopel raelly thought i was going to be huge or famous...my 'ex' who wouldnt have sex with me was a crazy a** photographer...but its like im litearlly just abused mistreated persecuted by people and it's crazy... people aer just jealous of me it's like they will do ANYTHING to stop me from succeeding...or giving me a chance and they always win. I even work in sales now and some jerk today lost me a 400.00 sale on PURPOSE he was a co-worker...he did it to screw me over and he won...it's weird how the evil people 'win' all teh time...life sucks...
i tried meeting people 'everywhere' the problem is-- if youre 'hot' everyone hates you...or even pretty. women hate you and men...hate you even more ive learned..i cant even get a damn boyfriend...ive given up...im also not arrogant...im considerd like 'shy and sweet' and people think they can mistreat me b/c im too nice....ive tried online dating believe me ive tried everything...im a virgin at 34 and a hot girl who wants to get laid...its just really crappy and weird.. i feel like a weird old creepy pervert guy who can't get laid and needs to be a predator or something...nothing in my life makes sense.
also guys are super intimidated by me and just abuse me...that's it..everyone like 'abuses me' for fun...they treat me like a geek you pick on in high school and make fun of me etc...it just sucks... im also not bitter and no one can sense any of that....ive been through a lot of 'trauma' adn something is 'off' but most people are just shocked at my supposed 'beauty' and treat me lower than sh*t.... also my attitude doesn't suck...everyone else's towards me does though!! im happy kind and positive and they all SHUT me down to extremes...abuse insult put m edown... i have an amazing attitude but everyone hates me...so there is nothing i can do. this is 14 years of this suffering...i know the spiel....im not 'all happy and hopeful' anymore...i realize im cursed...
you're either lying or really not as beautiful as you think you are.
there are fat/average women who make money in modeling i dont know how the fuk they do it but they do. I started to think well i guess u have to be fat to be a model now??? looks dont matter there are thousands of gorgeous girls and lots of them go into porn or become prostitutes....lots of super hot women just go into porn..b/c they cant make it as models...again youre an ignoramus who has no clue what you're talking about so get one
im a muslim... and i see know why people around the world give us shit.. it's because of retards like you.
Do the whole muslim nation a favour , stop sharing your thought to the whole world... or at least keep your religion anonymous >.
and yeah porn is full of not trailer trash women but lots of pretty sexy and HOT women...youre an idiot...youre the moron who knows nothing about porn...ive been in the modeling industry i know who's in it..its not trailer trash yuo loser
"Mirror Mirror On the Wall"
"Who's The CRAZIEST of them ALL??"
Um, I AM I AM (waving arms like crazy)
But, I sure don't let it get me down. I just pull on my hiking boots and start gimping down the road-
All the while happily whistling
"I'm So Lucky to BE ME"
La
la, la, la la la, ouch.
I think I just pulled a muscle-
My heart bleeds for you precious Angel, and I will pray for you. I too have suffered like this at the hands of my mother, sister's all men in my life and now my own daughter's who I loved more than the air I breath. I will send my story for you to hear some of it in detail.
Sara Mary
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