I am in my late twenties never had a real relationship, I've always sort sexual pleasures from escorts. I don't know how to relate to people I'm not shy just a bit socially inept. My mom died when i was very young I really can not remember her much a few years after her death I injured in an accident and was partial disabled in my eyes. My dad died when I was in my teens I had a hard time coping with that I started drinking and smoking heavily I use to drink to the point off blackout back then hoping that i would totally block out the pain. I tried to kill myself several times during that period in my life. I still do not know how i managed to make it into my twenties but i did I am now gainfully employed qualified & earning a decent salary. that is thing unfortunately I am also bisexual which i discovered in my teens when I had sex with a close family friend who by the way is married & has kids we had a brief affair. I am still depressed I gave up on god and religion along time ago i even got into satanism a while back. However, I still have suicidal thoughts and depression combined with my alcoholism is hell i have recently started back trying to kill myself to no avail. I was also a male escort for a short period in my life and the funny thing about those days was that i did not do i for the money but rather for the sex which is funny as hell to me sometimes. i still can not shake my suicidal thoughts my life seems empty and stuck in a moment as it were it refuses to move forward. | |
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