I have Social Anxiety and Depression. I've been battling it for many years. I still have thoughts of suicide no matter how many times i try to block it out of my mind. My father is in jail and my mom hates me. I'm the black sheep of my family. I have never gotten anything right no matter how much I try, I have the worst luck known to man, I am litterly a waste of space. i act like I don't give a fuck about a lot of things but I actually do. I care too much about what people think and that's what stops me from doing the things I want to do. I am a coward and I am nothing. I don't even think I will even pass my senior year because my anxiety is so bad that i'm failing. I wish I didn't have so many problems and will make my family proud and myself. I don't want to be a loser. That's all I'm asking for. | |
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If I were you, I'd start smoking weed...rope, gooner, brain smog, yerba, pot....right now, so that you can rid yourself of wondering whether or not your going to graduate highschool. This way, you'll be assured you won't...problem solved!
Next, I'd start hanging out with ladies with lose....um...morals, and try to get one of them knocked up so you can be sure there'll be at least ONE person out there dumber than you are.
Whatever you do, don't try suicide. You're the kind of person who's so dumb he would try to hang himself with licorice ropes. That'd be a colossal waste of licorice ropes, especially the red one because the black ones tast like what I imagine flea shit tastes like.
ĄCasting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
ĄThe Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)
Jesus loves you, he died on the cross for you, he died for your sin so that you could have eternal life. He knows the pain your going through, he can help you, he can change you and your life. Take him at his word.
You may have a chemical imbalance and if so anti depressent drugs and anxiety drugs can balance your serotonin levels. Anxiety and depression can be like a disease, you need to seek treatment. I would also say pray about it, God offers comfort that that the world cant offer.
Regards.
The Psalmist cried out, "No man cares for my soul." [Psalm 142:4]. He was experiencing the loneliness of isolation from other people, and the feeling that those around him were pursuing their own interests rather than showing genuine concern for his soul.
People are often pursuing their own interests and desires, but the lesson we must learn is that people are not our source. In the midst of your isolation, you can turn to Christ and discover that His love truly does satisfy. Jesus understands loneliness and rejection. He experienced isolation from people. Because he understands, he is able to bring acceptance and love.
Christ brings you love, acceptance, and intimate communion with the God of love. With Christ, you are not alone. He conquers your loneliness by coming to dwell within you. Loneliness is removed by the presence of the indwelling Christ.
There is precious communion with Christ, when a lonely person discovers that the love of Christ is real and satisfying. There is an old saying, "Blessed are the homesick, for they shall come home." Loneliness and isolation are signs of homesickness, which can only be healed by coming home to Christ.
Christ makes us whole. His love makes us whole, and out of the overflow of Christ's love within us we can then show love and compassion for those around us. Out of the overflow of His love and acceptance for you, which heals your loneliness, you can show love and caring towards those around you.
He knocks at the door of your heart; the presence of Christ is real. But He must be invited into your heart, into the center of your being.
Receive Him; receive His cleansing and forgiveness and love. Allow Him to have the control of your life in a genuine surrender, and His loving presence will fill you, removing loneliness and unrest. May the peace of Christ fill you now!
A Prayer of Surrender:
Dear Lord Jesus, please fill me with your love, and wash away all my sins. I surrender my heart and life to you. I ask you to receive me and make me whole.
Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins, to cleanse me and forgive me. Thank you for dying on the cross for me, to make me a child of God. I turn away from all my sins, with all my heart.
I receive you, Lord Jesus, as the Lord and Savior of my life. I ask you to rule in my heart and life from now on. I ask you to fill me with your loving presence, and guard me with your divine protection.
I ask you to strengthen me and help me, to live for you from now on. I ask you to fill me with love so that I can love other people with a pure love. Fill me with love so that I can love you with all of my heart. Amen.
Many people have a hard time
What I like to do is spend one day by myself and just try and relax no matter how hard you try somethings arnt meant to be so dont sweat it :)
Max.
p.s. fuck you truth!
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