LIFE SUCKS

ok here it goes

I miss him so much. The feeling just never goes away. Nothing numbs it out. No matter what I do, the pain is always just there. They say that time heals all wounds,, well how much time do I need? It's been almost 8 months now, and I still think about him constantly.
All other men are just his his shadow.

I can't even escape him in my dreams... so what use would it do to eternally sleep? His memory would follow me anywhere.

Every day is like a living death anyway. Stagnant... the same.

All I can think is that I must have karmically brought this on myself, somehow.

I never lied when I said I loved him. I never lied to him at all.

Now I've lost everyone. Friends. Family. I'm just a wretch, and I am alone...

But I put on this face, and people think I'm fine. No-one really cares much about my shit anyway, they all have their own shit to deal with.

I'm wasting away, but I don't care. I just miss him. That's all.