I have a girlfriend and a 2 year old son, I have no friends and haven't had any close friends for about 10 years now, and to be honest I have no need for them. All they do is complicate my life, point out all my flaws, call only when they need something or they know we have beer or food and run out the door when it runs out. I can't even have a normal conversation with someone through text...I ask a question and its always ignored as if they never received it or just respond with something completely different, that's if they respond at all. I'm at the point in my life where I just cut everyone out. Many people owe me money that I know I will never see, since they mysteriously disappear after I help them out financially. I have actually lend people money knowing I would never get it back just so I would never have to hear from them ever again and it was well worth it. I have a shitty job and the Boss screws me any chance he gets and won't even give me my vacation pay. Its hard for me to look for something else because of my anxiety and I get nagged all the time to change my job and find some friends but I don't need any, I'm much happier alone or with my family even tho my partner tares me down a lot, I know I don't try as hard as I should but I just don't have the motivation that I used too and she is no better. I clean the house every day and take out the garbage and the laundry, do all the driving and make 2 out of 3 of my meals a day. She doesn't like responsibility and that just leaves me with more. Every day I promise myself I will quit smoking the next day but I never do. Everyone's solution to anything is to take a pill but that's not me I suffer through my headaches, pain and feelings the natural way. We as a society are collapsing, cost of everything is sky rocketing and jobs are disappearing, everything is more complicated then it needs to be, we rely on computers to communicate and the media controls us,we complain about our governments decisions but its nearly impossible to change it so we don't bother to speak up. We are getting weaker mentally and physically. To take control you need to weaken them mentally and physically and then you have control. Glad I was able to rant somewhere.
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friendships are actually not for everyone. if you are not assertive enough, having friends can bring you down and cloud your spiritual evolution because you will be very much affected by what they say.
as for the rest, I suggest that you try meditation a bit, it can give you peace and quiet and new perspectives on life. google "u pandita in this very life"
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