This is my first time on this site. I've read a little of others' articles. Although I won't completely understand your situations on this site (since I haven't walked in your shoes), a lot of your emotions and feelings I do understand. Sadness, Depression, Loneliness, etc...
I've started writing in a journal. I write down all the feelings I have when I enter those dark places and what I feel causes them. However, the many pages I have scribbled through frantically only leaves me more confused on what actually causes those feelings or how to fix them.
I know that nobody is happy all the time, but I can't stand the overwhelming feeling of hating my life and occasionally wanting to end it. My life may not be perfect (no ones' life is), but I don't have any major life problems or health concerns... So if nothing is wrong or there is nothing that needs to be fixed, then why do I constantly feel like I can't go on.
I have done blood tests to check for hormone imbalance (since that can cause depression), however everything came back fine... So I am back to square one. If I have nothing that needs to be fixed (in life or in health), then why do I wish I was dead? These emotions of sadness, depression, loneliness, and occasional suicidal thoughts seem unwarranted for my situation, however this is how I feel.
If anyone has ever felt this way or experienced these feelings, please respond and let me know how you got better.
If you are simply on this site to bash others' feelings, articles, or situations: then please remember that unkind words are unwelcome and find something better to do with your time.