This is my first time on this site. I've read a little of others' articles. Although I won't completely understand your situations on this site (since I haven't walked in your shoes), a lot of your emotions and feelings I do understand. Sadness, Depression, Loneliness, etc...
I've started writing in a journal. I write down all the feelings I have when I enter those dark places and what I feel causes them. However, the many pages I have scribbled through frantically only leaves me more confused on what actually causes those feelings or how to fix them.
I know that nobody is happy all the time, but I can't stand the overwhelming feeling of hating my life and occasionally wanting to end it. My life may not be perfect (no ones' life is), but I don't have any major life problems or health concerns... So if nothing is wrong or there is nothing that needs to be fixed, then why do I constantly feel like I can't go on.
I have done blood tests to check for hormone imbalance (since that can cause depression), however everything came back fine... So I am back to square one. If I have nothing that needs to be fixed (in life or in health), then why do I wish I was dead? These emotions of sadness, depression, loneliness, and occasional suicidal thoughts seem unwarranted for my situation, however this is how I feel.
If anyone has ever felt this way or experienced these feelings, please respond and let me know how you got better.
If you are simply on this site to bash others' feelings, articles, or situations: then please remember that unkind words are unwelcome and find something better to do with your time.
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I'll say something similar to you: when there's no clear reason it can be even more difficult because you don't know how to go about dealing with it. But, try your best not to distance yourself or put yourself down (which can be hard). Don't ignore your feelings but try to focus on the positive and find at least person to confide in. If an everyday situation makes you spiral down (a falling out with friends/family, falling behind at school) just stop, breathe and think "why am I upset? I can get through this."
Good luck :)
I don't always hate my life, but most of the time I do. I envy those who always see the positive in things, because I feel like we are surrounded by so many negatives. It feels overwhelming at times.
Most will say I am lucky to have a full-time job, which I understand, but the truth is I hate the concept of work. There is nothing I hate more in this world than the idea of the rat race, climbing the corporate ladder, etc.
I hate that people are defined by their jobs, but moreover, I hate how much time we spend working. We are given one life -- a short life at that. What a waste of time to spend 50 years of it working! By the time we are retired and able to do as we please, our youth is long gone. Who decided this type of lifestyle would become the norm?
I work in a field that I love, and I still have a deep hatred for work. This leads me to believe it's impossible for me to be happy at any job.
I don't really know what to do. I am super lonely, as meeting people seems next to impossible nowadays. I've tried online dating but people are so flaky it's pretty much a joke. I have friends but spend so much time working that I often miss out on activities during the week.
I want to travel and see the world but I don't have enough money, and don't want to be far away from my family for an extended period of time, as my parents are getting older. I hate my roommates but can't afford to live on my own (I live in Brooklyn, NY).
Does anyone share these exact feelings? If so, how do you cope? I'm not suicidal, but once in a great while I will wonder how my death would affect my friends and family.
Also, I am male not female.
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