For the last year, I've had some hard times, times that have made me feel very lonely and isolated from the rest of the world. A year ago I attend a University with my best friend of eight years. We both chose the same school because it was a place where we 'both' wanted to go, we wanted to be with each other. After the first term of attending that school, I had to leave become of finical hardship. My friend though had the money to attend, so she planned to finish the year there, then go to the university of our hometown, that I would now, once again, be living in.
When I left to go back to my hometown, we promised that we would keep in contact no matter what, we were best friends. But as the year continued, it seemed she had less and less time for me. Soon talking everyday turned into every other day, and then it has gotten to the point where I barely get to talk to her for more than a hour a week. At first I figured this was big transition for her, me being gone, I assumed that she was trying to form new friendships, and I understood that I didn't want her to be alone. So I tried my hardest not to be offended, I felt that once she got settled in, that our communication would naturally pickup once again. That though was hopeful thinking, lately I've noticed she only talks to me if all her other friends are busy. I don't know, it just makes me feel unimportant anymore, she once would take time to just talk with me, but now I feel she doesn't. And when we do talk, she always leaves in the middle of the conversation to do something else. It really frustrates me, she sees these people everyday, talks to them everyday.....and she never sees be because of the distance, so talking is our only form of communication....and now she doesn't even take the time to do that, for a person she claims to be her 'best friend'.
This has just has made my life really difficult right now, in my hometown I never had many friends, I was just her and I. and now a year and half has passed by and I still don't have any friends in my home town. I go to the local community college, but I feel it's hard to make friends in at my community college, since a lot of the people are more focused on school rather than friends. Basically all I have going in my life is school....and nothing else. I have no friends here, and the only true friend I have doesn't talk to me anymore. I thought that all the problems with my friend would get better by now. I thought she would have noticed how lonely I must feel.
And none of this is her fault....it just sucks to be in a such a low point in my life, and then have no one to talk to. I've been trying so hard to fix my situation, but right now....my social life isn't getting any better.