Well, I feel like I have hit the rock bottom of my life. I always hated young females in the area that I lived, that got knocked up by these no life guys. The guys that drink, smoke weed, hang around outside and have no big dream or big goal. And if tthey did, there way of getting there would be illegally. I hated those guys and I hated the girls they knocked up. It turns out I ended up being one of those gurls. Am 20 years old and I'm about to give birth in two months to a girl with no daddy. I mean the dad is around but he's deadbeat. He hasn't done one thing for me throughout the pregnancy. He only blew up my phone everyday like 5 times a day to talk. What the hell is talking going to do for me. I gaved him attitude and hatred everytime he called and he still didn't get the hint. I don't even understand why he called so much. It has been annoyingn. The last time I talked to him, I asked him for money to buy the baby stuff and he just disappeared, stop calling. He would call before that and tell me that he was going to come over to talk and never did that. Always left me waiting, it was like a game to him. I was a game to him. And now here I am with an unborn child, not even ready to be a mother. I know that sounds immmature. I truly regret this whole situtation. Am finding it a hard time to get income because no one wants to hire a preggnant woman. My mother has kept me under her roof as of know but deep down I don't feel like she's happy that am there.she pays all the bills and I understand her anger I suppose. I dontt know what to do. Am looking for work so hard and its bullshitt because am the only one pressured to work. U believe that. I have brothers and sister and the pregnant one is the one required to bring income. No one needs to take responsibility but myself in this godamn house.. and I can't move out yet. Idont know what to do. Am depressed | |
You are going to have to make some pretty big decisions in your life right now. I would advise that you consider adoption? It probably has crossed your mind, but if you really do not want to have this child and financially can not take care of the child, it is a valid option??? In anycase, if you decide to keep the baby, you are going to have to realize that you are no longer number one- that baby is going to demand all your time and attention!! Are you sure you're ready for that? It will completely change your life. If I were in your shoes, considering all my options, adoption might be the best decision for both you and the baby? But that is going to be a tough decision. Gosh, I feel for you honey.... You're only 20, and you've got your whole life ahead of you! Just remember, you can't change the past- but you can change your future. Do what is best for you and the baby...
Keep us posted- my heart goes out to you...
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