LIFE SUCKS

like everybody else

I feel alone. I have friends, they are okay but I can't seem to function normally with other people. I love my family I guess. But every relationship (not romantic) makes me sick. I won't write about my life, the details, but I'll say that people are evil, I don't mean everyone but those around me. And when I do get out and find other people, I get sick. I can't take them any more. Everybody is so selfish and greedy and ungrateful. I just want to read all day. It's all about money and I guess it's social pressure and the environment in which I am living, it seems I don't see moral and all the good things in books and such. I wonder if moral even exists or are we all selfish? Fantasy is nice, it gives you an illusion on life, and it suits me. I wish to live in a mountain and have very little contact with humans. Or live in a small village or something like that. Do you have any ideas how I could do that? Are there choices? I can fake relationships with people, but I don't want to do that any more. I can't try and I can't always pick myself up. I don't want to try and I don't want to fake anything. I want something real. I know I can do anything. But I'd like some choices..to know them. And where and what I could do.