I see no point in life. Searching for a meaning, something that makes us happy. And you get to that goal you thought would make you happy. And you have money and a social life. But actually everything is superficial and nothing is real, no moral, since I don't think it exists. I dislike humans, even though I am one of them. I did everything I could, I have money now, I have a social life, a boyfriend. It's all fake. It's sad to think we all do the things we do for selfish reasons. You buy someone flowers so that YOU would feel good. You do something good for your own needs, satisfaction. Before I said it was what it was, and that is how we, humans, exist and live. But it just isn't enough any more. I'm not talking about a moment here. This has been eating me for years now, 10 years to be exact. And finally I've come to an end. I feel numb. And when someone dies, someone whom I have cared for, I accept it, since crying won't bring them back. And so what. I don't have anything to literally die for. Something so beautiful and strong and worth dying for. It doesn't exist. I wonder if it ever existed. I would have loved to die of hearth ache, die in an illusion i couldn't live without a certain person or a certain something! But no. We can live through anything since nothing is that meaningful. Judge away. | |
Try to think of happiness as a feeling less like a state. No matter how "successful" you think you are in this society it means virtually nothing unless you put it to good use. People always want more possessions, more money, and more popularity for wrong reasons. because they don't have morals, like you said. instead they see what they are taught they live in an illusion like you stated yourself.
But to envy these people because you can't live, like them, in a stupor anymore is outrageous.
You are very much blessed with an open mind, do not close it in fear of your own mortality.
From the sounds of it you aren't religious. I respect that. but, none of us know the truth about the afterlife. It's all faith.
Now that being the case. If there is no God no judgement, no meaning to life. Then you can live it however you want. but tell me how can you be okay with wasting the one life you get on this earth by living in a shroud of negativity.
Embrace each moment. Live life in an unselfish way. Find your happiness, create your happiness. Live with morals, don't stoop to the level of these ungrateful people.
I can't really say much more. The rest you will certainly figure out by yourself if you search hard enough.
What probably happened was that Paula and her foster daughter started in with some rug bumping. Then came the rug munching and, I mean, there were probably dildoes involved (strap n and double headed). But that's besides the point. The point is, Paula did nothing wrong. Besides, the daughter is probably going to grow up as a Lesbian any way
No matter what you do, you cannot stop the rug munching so it might as well start at home
When you feel gratitude, you can't feel anything bad -- it's one of the most pure, happy emotions humans have.
Try this. This sounds really silly, but it WORKS!
Go on you tube and look up Refugee Camps. Watch those videos. In a blink, your troubles are put into perspective.
Then take a moment and just be grateful for everything you have that those pour souls do not. If you focus only on gratitude, watch what happens!
Being grateful is a choice.
No matter what is happening, you can find something to be grateful about. That is the TRUE POWER you have. That is the SECRET TO HAPPINESS.
Try this. Get yourself super grateful, let that feeling take you over -- then go be with people. See what happens. Try this with strangers. See what happens.
Remember, people are like mirrors, they REFLECT what you are projecting. So if you hate yourself, they will pick up that vibe and bounce it back to you. If you project gratitude, that pure beautiful universal emotion will bounce back at you!
Always remember for anything in life -- spend 20% of your energy on the problem, and 80% of your energy on the solution. Stick to this and watch what happens to your life.
Always ask yourself -- "What is my next action?" Your brain will search for a solution.
Your brain's job is to answer your questions. So if you ask your brain a rhetorical question like "Why me?!" The only answer will be "You are worthless, you are cursed!" -- because that was the answer you were looking for -- yes?
WHAT YOU FOCUS ON IS YOUR REALITY. Your brain has no idea what is real or imagined. So if you if you get hurt once but think about it 1,000 times, your brain suffers it 1,000 times.
I'll prove it to you. Think of the juiciest LEMON you've ever seen. You slice the lemon. It oozes juice. You take the lemon slice and you BITE into it.
What happened? Did you salivate? Because you IMAGINED a lemon in your brain, your BODY REACTED as if it were real. So there is your proof that what you imagine is real.
So thinking about this? If you imagine something horrible happening to you, wouldn't your body think it's real? If you relived a painful situation, wouldn't your body think it's happening again?
Now... if you relive a WONDERFUL MEMORY, wouldn't your mind think you're having another beautiful moment?
So now that you know this, and you still find yourself dwelling on the bad emotions -- it's evidence that you are conditioned to suffering -- because now you have a choice.
This means you have to do some soul searching.
It's time to investigate, face your issues, whatever they maybe. Focusing on wanting friendships, relationships, problems, etc.. is your unconscious need for a distraction from dealing with your repressed pain. People you are with feel the vibe, it's like a radio signal that you can't hide.
It's likely deep seeded self-esteem issues (we all have them).
Be honest with yourself. Read books, or articles online, if seeking therapy is too scary. Self help books on self-esteem.
Focus on the solution, don't dwell on the problem. Burning your energy on the problem will only lead to addiction to depression.
Deal with yourself first, and your true energy will attract the life, the people, the relationship, the things, the love you deserve.
Again, the SECRET TO LIFE: WHAT YOU FOCUS ON IS YOUR REALITY!!
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