I came from a dominant, confident, never been dump and living the life financially and having tons of friends to now 30 jobless, lives at home and friendless. I lost everyone and the only person i did have was an emotional abusive ex bf and lastnight was the last (yah right I said this 2x already) ill ever have him cuss at me.. I cussed him out too... I have God and I should be good BUT Why do I feel this emptiness and sadness... Ive became the black sheep of the family and I dislike my lil lesbian sister who selfishly only care about her happiness and does what she wants and acts as if everyone is her slave including my folks BUT everyone adores her... WTF!!!!
I want friends to go out with and praying so badly to finally the guy whose rib I came out from...
Im not an ugly woman, Im decent looking and have such a one of a kind heart.
Its sucks cause all I really want is to find my soulmate but how can I if I dont go out cause no where to go and I dont have my own car and Jobless... what would I do without the internet.. Its my bestfriend now and hoping God will miracously manifest the guy of my dreams online or at least the friends whom can be for life...
Damnnn I forgot to mention I tolerated the ex and kept chasing him cause I have nobody else.. I actually did loved the guy but he can careless if I died... I so hope I can stand on my ground this time and not chase after him cause Im feeling alone and wants to get out.. Im tired feeling like a fool and he disrespected me sooo much and never said sorry yet my dumb ass cant help feeling this loneliness and badly I wanna get out so I chase him and just forgive him.
I am prayingggggg for a miracle cause I really dont want to resort to him anymore... he takes the pleasure in emotionally tormenting me first and when he has enough then maybe he will take pitty on me... Sometimes I wish someone teachs him a lesson or he can trade places with me for a week so he can know my sorrows...
Well thank u all for reading and just know whoever feels friendless that U always got a friend in me.
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Trust God keep your head up.
Maybe its a hooker itself that why its know where to even standby
dont listen to these low lifes here who has nothing better to say.
Tell your jerk of an ex to step the Fuck out and the hell with your sister.
Do you and what makes you happy
Stop waiting for a guy.
Work out, exercise, maximize your life now.
If you find someone good along the way, great.
Also, no one is perfect, but you should not be disrespected.
No one else ever will make you happy, happiness is a decision you have to make.
People who is bashing me Fuck you all and I may have my own issues but at least Im lived well before than you heartless addicts will ever live.
And I dont doubt those who likes to talk crap have it worse oh so much worse than me.... At least I aint no fucken druggie...
no disrespect to the rest.. this is only for those who should be the one deserving to be 6 ft under.
I suggest to apply at any jobs for the moment and only worry about yourself! Your ex knows he can control you and you are just taking baits from him. Do NoT give him that pleasure! You said you believe in God so you should know you are not alone.
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