LIFE SUCKS : Job

fightin for what i worked for!

so i worked my ass off and had a wife just got my farm paid off when i found my wife was doin my boss for yrs, well messy devorice, sold my house in the city to pay the ex out,and made a deal to subdevide the farm property to finish paying her out, i have put out my self over 280 thousand in bills with lawyers feees and such, i have worked my ass off and paid off everything myself, no help ,, everything was looking good finally after 7 yrs i was paid off, ,,, then i got a rash it covered all of me, and itch like crazy night and day, doc could not figure out what it was,becuse of not getting much sleep , i lost my job due to the rash, and there is not much for jobs here, just what i need, threw other testing from the doc it was discovered that i had a liver issue causing the rash, like exema symtoms ,then there right after ,doc tells me my spleen is enlarged,so great,what next, well there i was shoppin in a store when i got this pain in my chest sweating in a daze, i get my self to the hostpital and here im haveing a hart atack,,, i got threw that, finding out also i have copd,,, like for fuck sakes!! i need to go back to work,and now i can,t work,, im not abil to ,so here i sit on my farm screwed,, no girl ,, goin broke no nothin can,t evin sell the farm becuse the exs name is still on it, till she gets paid out and ill be fucked if i stoop to her level,,i hope to god i can get threw this and get back to work soon, but the way it,s looking is not good . sometimes id rather just give up if yo uknow what i meen, but i worked hard all my life and desirve better,, what the fuck would you do, im comin to a loss here

Everyday feels like punishment

Every day I wake up feels like another day of punishment. It has felt this way for lately and for a while - whether I thought of it that way or not. Where do I even begin...

Ok so, before the economy totally tanked I was very successful in my career. I was starting to pay off my student loans and any debt that I had from working 2 crappy jobs and putting myself through school full time. I had respect, my own office, and loved what I was doing. Then it got messed up (long story). I lost my studio office, most of my business, got into debt trying to save it, got stressed out, gained like 50-60lbs from being stressed out, etc etc.

Then I had to start doing physical labor - painting murals and rich peoples homes to make money - making a lot less than i was used to and pulling 12 hour days breathing in toxic paint etc. I was always dirty, felt unattractive and generally felt tired like I was dying every day. Eventually I burned myself out completely and hurt my back.

I was unable to work from Nov.2011 to now April 2012. I have run through any savings I had. I had to get on welfare, food stamps and other degrading programs. I got even fatter. I was a very proud person and now I feel like a slug. I am also filing for bankruptcy. I have about $300 to my name and then rent is due again soon... I wont have enough.

My back is sort of better. I quit smoking and I lost 30 lbs so far with a lot more weight left to lose. I need to be on antidepressan...

I am ashamed of myself

Im 23 years old and working a dead end security job,living pay check to pay check.My parents everyday tells me how ashamed their feel when somebody ask about me.I was never smart or had any good grades, dont matter how hard I study Ill fail.My mom tells how all her friend family member kids are so bright,smart, going to school,help pay the bills,and having nice materialistic things.Im in serious debt and cant get a bank account because of this.All my so call friends have all the money in the world, makes fun of me because of my 91 Honda with no AC in it .Everybody I know living life to fullest or the fast life.They party and have fun while my broke ass stay home feeling despress.I ignore my ex gf or any females because I feel dont deserve her or them.Im to broke or stupid to change anything.I feel like to clock is against me.It dont matter what I do I still fail at it,It could be something illegal and still no money coming in.I been kind and nice and dont get it and return.I dodge girls im to broke to afford dates and to embarrass to drive my car.I cant keep a long term of relationship becsusr of my failures or what she might think of me not doing noghting for my self.I wanna accomplish goals and my dream I feel like im curse and have bad luck,cause what ever I do I always hit an road block.Im gonna say goodbye to all my so call friends and family members who dont really give a fuck about me.Im gonna say good bye to their happy fun lifestyles which I cant live.Im gonna say good bye to my parent out rages expections,and to my love life that I also never experience.Because im give up.

Don't drink and drive

Three months ago, I was what most would consider a successful person. I worked as a RN case manager in home care. I loved my work and had been doing it for 20 years, 10 years in Michigan.
I went to college when I was in my late twenties, after my husband left me. I worked and went to school with 2 small children at home. I became a nurse. It was great. I moved to Arizona, lived there for 15 years.
Came back to Michigan when my daughter had children. My grand children. I worked there as a case manager in home care. Doing what I do best, caring for other people.
In June my sister was diagnosed with colon cancer, she had surgery in august. I worked every day, then went to the hospital to take care of her. Make sure she gets up and walks, that she is eating right and that she is telling them about any pain.
When she was released, I worked every day and went to her home every evening to take care of her. She lives 40 miles from me. I did this for two weeks. When she was able to care for her self, get out of bed without assist, make her on food and shower alone, I went home after work on a Friday evening.
I was sitting at home and decided I would go have a few beers at a bar close to an old apartment that I used to go to. I liked to play keno. Long story short, I was stopped for speeding and arrested for driving while intoxicated. I did what every one does and obtained an lawyer, went to court. Did not get much help from my attorney, I didn’t...

I make dishes

So, like, here I am, stuck in limbo sucking on another pint bottle of Seagram's 7 waiting for my life to catch up with my dreams. I'm not an "alcoholic," I mean my uncle on my fathers side drunk himself to death and my grandfather on my mothers side has been drunk sense 1954, but I digress... I'm 29 and just got my Bachelors degree *whoopee* I'm the first member of my family to do so and I gone done fucked it up by getting it in studio art. Yup, I am no good for anyone, not even myself because I chose an art form that requires a $10,000 kiln and a $10,000 studio, yeah I decided to make dishes, by hand. I know, I know fucking retarded. I got $22,000 of debt to pay off first, HA! like thats gonna happen, but compared to some other majors I kinda got off cheep. So any-hoo here I am, in limbo. Don't let it fool you, it did me for a while, limbo is a very special place, a place where one can go and relay, where you can read countless numbers of novels, a place where you can get talked to by your father you haven't spent more that 3 hours with per year for the last...ummmmm...13 years, yeah, limbo... But its coo right, I mean *FUCK MY SEGRAM'S GONE DAMN ME FOR DRINKING IT* I only gotta spend 6 months putting up with shit, not making art, working a loser job (the one I'm trying to get, but hasn't happened yet) before Life catches up with my dreams, right? I'm a winner, right? I can do it, right? I better because in like 6months I'm gonna hop a plain to China and study ce...

ugh

I am only 21. I should be living life to the fullest but I can't. I am an assistant manager that tries to hard to keep the employees that used to be my coworkers not just my subordinates happy. In turn I do all their jobs and am stuck feeling like I do everything. Every day I have a feeling the only reason I got the job is so they could fire me. I recently had a miscarriage as well. One of the cashiers at my job is still pregnant and she feels like i hate her because I lost my child and she didn't. I do not hate her. I hate those women that get pregnant and do not give a fuck what they do to their bodies in turn to their unborn child (ie drugs and alcohol). I am very depressed because the only friends I had were my coworkers but now a days I always feel like they are using our friendship as a way to get out of work. They always tell me "your the one who took the job knowing what was going to happen" yes I did but at the same time i know I shouldn't be doing the whole fucking stores job every single day.

life sucks for me at 40

I'm 40 with a wife and a 10 years old girl.
I was laid off 2 weeks ago after spending 3 years in a company making just ok salary to get by.
This is the second time I got laid off. I was laid off 3 years prior from another job. It took me 3 months to find my last job. My wife is a demanding woman and not very considerate at all. She works but only makes minimum pay. She really hates her job and wants to quit all the time (she still does). Naturally she turns to me for complaints all the time. That kills our marriage. I found she doesn't love me anymore. We sleep in separate bedrooms (we still do) and sex is pretty much nonexistent. I remember I suffered a very bad case of depression during that 3 months period.
Since that time I have been having a major mid life crisis. I feel insecure and become very conscious that time is running out for me. I achieved nothing in life (compare to my friends) and still hasn't made a mark in the world.
I don't know what went through my head but I somehow got myself a girlfriend on the side about a year ago (from my part-time job) I think it was the thrill of being irresponsible. My gf costed me money of course and I ended up being in debt (cannot let my wife knows) My gf is a prostitute by profession by the way. In the beginning this fact drove me nuts but recently I came to accept it. I just stopped picturing her with other men in my head. I wouldn't have believed it if you ask me a year ago. There had been many epi...

My life sucks and i don't see a Light

I am 38yo, went to Ultrasound school when i was 34 graduated 35 couldn't find a job, everyone told me you have to get the Registration Licence -so i sat 1 year and Study --soo much $$$ on Rent/Living and good news finally i got my Licence not 1 but 2 different for Heart and General. Now TWO and 1/2 years passed i am still Looking for this Job, FL , NY or LA doesn't matter i just seem can not find that Job (that is available) Most people now require 3 years experience where will i get that Experience if i can't get that first job?
waisting 4-5 years of my life with $50,000 debts No Job, Living with Relatives ( My mother passed away long time ago) > here i am feel like in this Person who stack in this small Fishtank and world is just Living -Laughing-Going forward but all i do is swim in this Round Glass and there is No way out?...How much more should i Continue look for this Job? what and where should i go next? i am not 22 , or 32 yo to say -ok let me see what else i can to and study or change profession.
U have to know a Doctor or Cardiologist in order to get the job now days, its impossible to get on there doorsteps. and funny thing when i was in School Everyone bet that i will get the Job first , because i don't have a Family -> i have OK looks, i am Charismatic etc... But turn out to be i am NOTHING but this OLD bag , or maybe this Fragile Butterfly ...
I really couldn't believe or imagine how Cruel people are, No one wants to give you a Chance, No one cares -> but i just don't understand How people make it? what about Them -those people -who re hiring, there was Time when They were looking for a job, Someone HELP them right??? Someone give them a hand that they started..
No matter how much , how hard i try i just Can't find that Job.....I think Pretty soon i am going to be Homeless. And scary thing is No one can help me.

Feeling Low

I am feeling very low these days. Nothing seems to be in place lately. I know the reasons for the same however I am unable to create happiness or change my present state of my mind. My work is taking a toll on me. They are not paying me on time and I am getting frustrated because of it as I have my own expenses to be met. Also I feel am trapped in a shell where I am unable to comprehend what do I want in my life. Will the settlement at my job allow me to be happy. Yes to a large extent it would. But that is not happening and it would take sometime before things get worked out.

God help me to get out

Language and Discrimination

Currently I am on Medical Leave due to heavy depression. I am under the depression medication and sleeping disorder medication. I have never been on a sick more than 3 days in last 10 years. I am currently work as a senior technical position in the one of the top 100 companies in Canada over 8 years. I was a happy and productive employee. Last year I have move to my present job. 2 people on my team and my manager is fully responsible of my current situation. I am mentally physically and emotionally sick. The main reason was my poor English and other 2 persons reporting to my manager about me all the time. In the other words back stabbing.

I am an immigrant to this great country and living here over 14 years. My manger told me various times my English is bad and poor. This were happening in past 12 months. Also every time I work with other 2 person, they are reporting to my manager. One day my manager call me to his desk and ask me to sit down beside him and he told very loud, my English is very poor. he ask me to write a sentence in his computer. I was very shocked and very upset. I know all the people around my work area were heard. I also admit I did mistakes in my job. That because I did not had a proper training regarding the subject matter. I have ask the manager about the taining and he told me on the job training is the best. My job is mission critical system support and do require lots of training.

Long story short, After this incident he has re...

I hate my job

I hate my job. I work as a weather man with long hours and crappy leadership. I get tired of people always telling me to do my job, why can't i just do nothing all day and get paid for that. Its soo hard, always no sleeping at work, no watching tv at work it makes me soo mad. Weather is horrible, its always there, how am i supposed to know if it's going to rain, look outside jackass, is it raining? there your freaking answer. I'm getting pretty tired of doing this job but its the only thing i know how to do. i tried working other jobs but got fired for being too good looking, its a curse i guess. any ways i'm thinking i'll quite later this week don't feel like dealing with all those people at work.

27 year old with barely minimum wage job

Hello, my life truly sucks and it's mostly my fault. I just turned 27 with a barely above minimum wage retail crap job that I've had for a few years; I just finished with my bachelors in a degree I have no desire for. I'm going to quit my job today with no job lined up because I freaking hate it so much. I'm constantly being abused and used until I get so old that they will spit me out. Luckily I have enough savings to last me for a while and I'm living my parents. I have no friends and no girlfriend and yet sometimes girls do flirt with me but than I end up messing up because I don't know what the hell I'm doing.

I wear thick-ass glasses and have bad teeth. Everything I do seems to be never good enough for anybody. I just have to live my life for myself. I'm a bit shy and quiet with low self-esteem but I can get overly aggressive if I was super piss. Everytime I think about going into my crap retail job I end up crying and cannot do anything else. I'm going to quit today and that's freaking it and if the manager wants to fire or give me a bad reference than so freaking be it; I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I just feel like I cannot do any better than my crappy job but I just know there is something else out there if not than I'll go back to retail at a different company I mean come on I'm still under 30.

This is not the end until I'm the end.

Why?

This is the lowest of lows ive ever felt in my entire life. Im 20 years old with a single mother and a father whos been in jail pretty much my whole life. This was no big deal, i was used to it and i was a pretty happy kid with exceptional grades. Once i finished high school i went off to college for radiology. Two semesters in my mother got very ill and i had to take off school to help her out. I was working a full time job at the same place for 6 years. Just recently my mother has gotten better but my work decided to close which forced me to collect unemployment for the time being. My employer told me we were only closing for 6 weeks so therefore i only applied for unemployment for those 6 weeks. About a week ago the business decided not to open back up but my unemployment had already stopped. On top of that i just paid all of my bills along with putting a down payment on an apartment close to where my new job will be starting in another month. With all that, i have no money left. So fast forward to today, i find out im pregnant of course. This was the downfall of my, everything else just seemed like an obstacle that i would overcome because thats always how ive lived my life. Very optimistic under the cards ive been dealt. I'm not sure how this has happened considering my boyfriend and i have taken all the precautionary measures. i just dont know what to do. eveything is so stressful. Why must the world revolve around money.

My life really sucks--but its all true.

Out of nowhere, in February 2011, my 16 year old son passed away (heartbroken doesn't even describe it) ...he had an underlying heart condition that we never knew about....two months later, my beloved dad passed away, four months later, my mother passed away.
This spring, I was removed from being at the top of my volunteer charity because there was a change in administration.
Today, I was told that the position I LOVE and worked very hard maintaining (going WELL beyond my job description), is being pulled back for someone who is angry, loud, miserable, and needs to retire.
I am devistated. I have little to no family left, and I don't have any friends due to the "clicks" at work. They only thing I had left was my job that I excell(ed) at. I already spoke to my boss, and his mind is made up. Having such a passion for what I do, that I was overcome with anxiety and GI problems, that I had to leave work. By the way, the news came in am e-mail.
Please don't say I need to change jobs, etc.
I feel that I have been pulled down in the mud, kicked, and spit on. I don't know what to do. I am so alone.

For over 2 years I have been telling my bosses to move the person that I relieve from that area. He's lazy, unorganized, and shows up just to earn a paycheck. These same bosses tell me repeatedly that they love my work ethic. These same bosses tried to fire me when my son was born and I had to miss 2 days. These same bosses moved me off of 3rd shift to 2nd ....... and didn't have professionalism to tell me. I read it when they posted the new schedule.
The lazy guy I mentioned before has been screwing up for weeks. I have been fixing his mistakes (wiping his ass) for weeks. I have told my 6 members of management about his mistakes. He finally gets a mistake past me ....... and I'm the one that gets fired.
I've got a 13 month old baby. And I have no job

No nothing.

I want to work, I want to learn, I want to love, I want to be happy! I don't have money for college, I have a part time job where I work 12 hours a day and when I get back I'm tired as hell. And I don't have any money left for ANYTHING. This isn't even my computer. How can a person stay motivated if what I want in life I can't be reached. All I can have is a part time job. And another after that..and another. I can't even buy a freaking book. And I love to read so much. I wish I could just read all day somewhere in a meadow in the mountains and enjoy the sunshine. Health care...jobs..social pressure...no real friends. I have friends, sure..I can't go out with them that much because I don't have the money to pay one drink. ONE. I'm 20. Nobody to help me. I'm not depressed or sad or angry, I'm just numb since I tried my best and it wasn't enough, because of MONEY. Please could you tell me, how do I make my life better? How can I change this? And be happy? I just want to not worry about bills and have enough money for books. I don't even care about clothes that much or expensive materialistic things. I want to work. I want to change. I need help. Help isn't coming.

Sad, Tired, and Feel Unlovable and Worthless!

Let's see....

Husband lost job, family lost their home, lost 17 years of marriage. The man was, and still is a miserable verbally abusive asshole... Happy about the break up because the kids and I have some form of peace, but also sad & frustrated because so much invested in that much time. It's disgraceful that this person didn't recognize what he'd had, and still doesn't.

40 year friendship gone, due to unexpected death.

Just found out my other friend of 40 years is dying of an incurable disease, and may need to leave her remaining 3 children with me to finish raising them and loving them. Nervous about this because she lives so far away, I don't really know these kids.

Closest family member moved out of the country.

Work all the time because of a demanding low paying job. Financially strapped, tired, and feel unlovable, worthless, and heart wrenching-ly sad and lonely... Definitely NOT in finding someone new at the moment, but also afraid to trust at the same time....

Can't kill myself, too many people rely on me, & it would ruin their lives.

my life

im 30, have a degree,live with my dad and brother. but i work for my mom. she nags the shit outta me. so i hate my job. i dont have a girlfriend because im socially awkward and have not had intercourse in 3 years, only messing around. my brother has downsyndrome and even though i love him i am so embarrassed to take him anywhere because people stare at him like he is from outer space. i feel like crap, i always fuck up my friendships, so im always bored. i smoke weed everyday and i think it helps but it im getting tired of spending money on it. girls ignore me. my friend always tells me "girls can tell you dont get pussy". sometimes i just think life is not worth it and i want to die and not deal with this low self esteem bullshit.

Hate being a doctor

college, med school, phd, residency, fellowship. Tired of seeing my life pass in front of me and do nothing. tired of work and study over nothing.
i hate my job, i hate my patients and those stupid nurses. i hate my colleges and my life i think i just hate myself. I sleep 3 hours every day, have to do everything im expected to do everything right and to be perfect outside work
Im tired of trying to be perfect. even though I've worked hard to be here, I am lazzy and not very smart. I used to care, now i don't give a damn if you get better or not.
Im so fucking tired of being given bullshit at work everyday. and then i get home and get extra bullshit for not returning calls? what do you think i WAS DOING? TANNING MY ASS AND DRINKING BEER IN HAWAII? NO!!! I was fucking working like an idiot.
fuck everything this life is shit

self inflected wounds

Well to begin I’m in the army, have been for 10 years. I understand that life in the army is usually not too bad they provide for everything, rent, food, utilities and pay u to go to college. But I dug myself in a huge hole that it isn’t even funny. Now I realize that my story isn’t the worse and it is recoverable but at the very least it feels better to complain about the situation I’m in. Well first off let’s start with the job, like I said I’m in the army but a recruiter, now if u know about recruiting its very political. They don’t look out for anyone in the unit, they try and screw u over at every chance they get, and if u were ever to get on the hit list, good luck trying to get off of it, I should know from firsthand experience. And on top of that I am being investigated cause I admit I messed up on the paperwork, but it was unknowing to myself until it was actually pointed out on a piss test I had to conduct, so now I’m stressing about not only the investigation outcome which could end my career of 10 years, but I’m trying to balance getting people in the army cause if I don’t then I have about 3 to 5 people yelling at u asking y u haven’t put anyone in the army, so that how much fun I’m having at work and there’s more about work but I’ll get to that. Now let’s go with the ex-wife, I was married to her for 5 years I deployed to Iraq and she cheated on me we got divorced, we had a son together which even though we have joint custody she thinks that she has a...