so um...i hate fathers day 'cause my mom tries so hard to make my dad have a great day and stuff, but he just treats her like shit and yells at me just 'cause he doesn't have anyone else to blame. and so that pretty much sums that up. plus my parents fight like all the time and the other day i actually cried like a whole lot...and it was weird. plus i broke up with my boyfriend...kinda..but the fucky part is, is that right now he's in the hospital 'cause he had surgery and it went well...but now he's not waking up and the doctors don't know what to do so i'm really worried. and other shit...plus alotta my friends just decided to leave me. so that really sux 'cause i've been friends with them for 5 years and yeahh...plus there is a bunch of other shit and i might not even go to the same school next year because my parents are stupid. and i really don't know what to do, 'cause shit is just happening and the only thing really keeping me alive right now is a guy I'm kinda dating. I've attempted suicide too many times and it never works. I have a cutting addiction and and i'm losing faith in alotta people and my bestfriend hates me right now for no apparent reason, and IF people really must know, life sucks, period. School sucks, Mornings suck, Drugs suck, God sucks, Telivision sucks, Music sucks, sports suck, siblings suck, parents suck. Fridays SUCK. In conclusion you can make you life worth while with all of its suckiness, or you can sit at home all day in deep depression and think about dying. plus today was just kinda really weird and...i think i'm going crazy..like literally crazy...plus alotta my friends r worrying me because like they're going through shit too but i cant do anything about it so i feel usless. plus people are being jerks to me and i'm sick of it. and my girlfriend who i loved died like 2 years ago but i'm still really upset about it and I have been kicked around by so many people in life idk who to trust and all this other stuff...so yeah. | |
But it is FUCKING beautiful can't challenge that.
God Bless.
"Hello miss i was wondering if i could fill out an application (smile)
RESPNSE "Well the boss isnt here now but i can tell you one thing, you had better cover up your tattooes or he aint gonna hire you looking like that"
Then in my mind i have a fantasy sequence where im using piano wire for about 10 full minutes to strangle her to death.
Damn im so tired of this fucking life.It takes so much effort just to fucking breathe for christsake. No amount of work is enough. you will never be accepted. you will never make money. you will never be respected. So i just keep living my life treating people nice and getting nowhere in my jobs and love life. God i wish this world would just fucking end already. I wish murder was fucking legal and everytime i had a smartass fuck with me i could just spend about an hr stabbing that piece of shit to death . Well fuck it, it will all be over soon and im sure i'll just get a bunch of negative responses but i dont care.Fuck everyone for getting me to the point where i act like this.
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