Before I start English is my fourth language, hence I would ask you to forgive any mistakes I make.I do not intend to generalize and put everyone in the same bucket since as humans each and everyone one of us is unique in his ways to cope with various life situations. However, no matter how hard it is and no matter how close you are to your breaking point(or how close you think you are) suicide is a last resort action, if not an appropriate action at all. Imagine if the cavemen would have all committed suicide(or if you are religious imagine if our ancestors did because at some point their life sucked and trust me their life did suck)then there would not be any humans and between not existing and existing I would choose the first hands down, since if you do not exist you do not even get the luxury to complain about life. I do not claim to understand your pain, nor do I try to do so for the simple fact that we all are different and any attempt to patronize one of you would be a perversion. In the same way it is pointless to mention whose problems pale in comparison to others, its all relative at the end, one may cope better with something another finds impossible to deal and vice versa. However, each time you read a newspaper or on the internet or open the television and it shows a car accident, a murder or just an accident and people die, well those people might have wanted to live a bit more and while in some ways they are responsible directly or indirectly for their death(in a butterfly effect or karma or whatever you want to call it)given a choice between dying at that moment or later on they would have probably chosen the option that gives them more control over their death. Even in the context of an elderly person who has(according to himself/herself) seen all the world experienced pretty much everything some might just want to die right away inside of dying from boredom and even then they find something to hang unto. Thing is when you think that your life sucks you only concentrate on yourself and thus in a way you are selfish, which is also normal, but as long as you have control over that emotion/impulsion and that it does not control you. No one is perfect, I have been studying most of my life getting good grades and I still made mistakes, mistakes that might seem nothing to other people but are big by my standards since we all have our ego, ego which reflects itself in every opinion we have or in every argument we are part of like it or not. I have been suicidal before and I am still depressed, some days less than others, but not a day goes by without me contemplating suicide, yes I work yes I study but sometimes your life seems so big you just want a way out or want a simpler life. In a strange way living like that on the border line provides some adrenaline or motivation to go on, the feeling that there is still something that you can do, something that needs to be accomplished.I am far from the sunshine road and I do not want to lecture you, just trying to provide as an objective point of view as possible, but then again I am only human and yet maybe that is enough? | |
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