Life does suck at times. We all have our highs and lows. I was in a relationship for 20 yrs it was a off and on again abusive relationship. She abused me at first. Then when our first son was born. Later on she would take her anger out on him and me. At times it would get really bad. I grew up in abuse it seems to follow me. After 18 yrs we seperated still not divorced. We all have bills and we all owe somebody something. Its apart of life theres no way around it. Some of us have jobs and some what of a life. I moved to get away from her but doing so has placed me 2 and half hrs from boys. There are times i would love to take my life. But that is such a selfish act. When I feel like that I always think of my kids and how it would affect them. None of us are perfect. Being poor is a sign of the times we cant blame no one but ourselves and the greedy banks. Always remeber no matter what, the rich will continue to get richer. Rich people run our country. Have you ever heard of a poor congressman our a poor senator let alone a poor president. I havent. Anyway this too will pass. I lost my job back in july when my kids were spending the summer with me. We made it through the summer they still had fun and now its almost christmas Ive since have gone back to work. But Nothing never seems to be the same. Im trying to be positive hoping things will get better after jan. We always want the best for our kids we make sacrafices so that they may be happy. And so they are protected from the real world. I know when I go get them on the weekend the little one will call to see what time Im leaving and he will sit outside on the edge of the road until I pull up . He is so precious. Cherish the moments while they are still young because once they get past 13 you can forget it. They have friends now and they no longer care about you. I tend to go back in time when I was there age and makes me wonder how they feel about there mom and dad not being together. I can remeber how I felt. I would cry at times after thinking if one of them wouldve died. I was lucky to have both parents growing up. But I can remeber the fights and the arguing. But They were still both there so I felt like it was just normal. Anyway Someone mentioned earlier about how unfair it was for those of us who work . We dont get hand outs the goverement want help us those of us who work so we are left to fend for ourselves with no help so I can relate. Life isnt fair no one said it would be . Its our job to learn from our mistakes and move on with life suck it up Do your best and try to make the best of your situation. Thats all we can do I hope this finds everyone well and good luck with your sucky life I will try to enjoy mine the best way I know how | |
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