As a kid I was very popular in high school. Had lots of friends, a great personality, and my parents had tons of money. Every girl wanted to be me. But what they didn't know is the SHIT i went through at home. My dad was controlling, a pervert, and was verbally abusive. He even touched me on several different occasions. And recorded me in a tanning bed. My mom got me out of there when I told her about it.
I quit high school my 12th grade yr. (DUMB, i know) But i had to work and pay for my own car.. my mom couldn't do it on her own. I met a guy at my job.. got really involved with him. Six months into the relationship I became pregnant by him. I couldn't get him to work. We had to stay with family and he to became abusive towards me. He would always make it up to me.. so I would give in.
We eventually got a place together and raised our son. After my sons 1st bday.. I got pregnant again. And he left me. I had no job, car or money. I had to move in with my dad. My dad forced me to have an abortion. Something I regret every day of my life. I made myself sick crying over my ex. Finally we got back together... He continued to be abusive. Hit me, smacked me, even forced me to have sex with him.
4 years later I get pregnant again. Had a lil girl. Worse fear ever. Having to bring a girl in the world for men to treat her the way they do me.
Bf still treating me like dog shit.. and I meet a neighbor.. who was older. Completely fell for him. He made me promises and made me feel like no one ever had. We got a place together and apparently he didnt like my first son. My first son chose to go live with my dad for school purposes. I got a job and things started looking normal. WRONG. I hardly ever see my lil girl due to my job.. and little money. I am the most horrible mother in the world. I love those babies with everything in me.. and ive let this man seperate us. He has become verbally abusive towards me. He is controlling and jealous. Never wants my son here.
My life FUCKING SUCKS!!!!!!