life does suck...Try being 34 years old, get kicked out the military which you did 8 years, and have to depend on the govt for your living expenses when you move from Denver CO to Las Vegas NV, where unemployment is the highest in the fucking nation! Try living with the fact that your family looks at you differently like your the black sheep in the family because you date and married outside your race. Try taking a look at when you help people to try to better themselves they always fuck you over. Being an unemployed, but yet educated veteran is also a target for being a quote unquote terrorist. Try thinking about yourself not others...I can't, because its not in my nature. I have gone through more bullshit in life than others. I been in different countries. I seen life. And it all sucks. Everyone in this planet is oppressed in some shape form or another. And why? Because you let it to happen. You succumb to the fact that everyone has a different agenda. Even family. DTA. My motto. Even with my gf, family, whomever. Life as an atheist has been better than my ex-Christian life. You and only you is what matters. Fuck the rest. Being different is a good thing. Tell yourself that every day. This is your one and only life. Re-create and move on. Create yourself and by doing that, you will either hate life, enjoy it, or move on. Its a hard concept, but thats what the monetary system set up for us to live about. Blame yourself, and educate yourself, before pointing fingers. Life does suck but think about other options. Educate yourself.