im 16 and i live in the most boring fucking closed minded country on the planet. My parents are like two completely separate people from me and is completed by my brother and my little sister.Our family is without a doubt dysfunctional. Not in the way that my parents are divorced or im constantly abused its way more complicated than that. Without giving to much information i could pretty much say i dont have allot of unhappy childhood memories. I have friends in fact im well liked but its like im cut off from everyone else like everything just exists for the moment and i know the truth the truth that it all doesn't matter. When im sad its like someones piercing my heart i remember the tears i think of my life the people who will get into good universities live good honest whole lives.In my school its like im the only one in another category. The one where very few things will be easy who will always have an aching feeling of despair that only goes away for moments. My life feels so fake i feel like i have nothing to live for except the people that ill leave behind. I wish I was strong enough to forget or change. Be a different person. Im not though and i dont think ill ever be. |