I have had the unfortunate distinction to be born fat and ugly. I am also a girl. It is true what they say about "everything you learn in life you learn in kindergarten." I learned that fat, ugly girls have no place in this society. I am not even one of the "lucky" ones that has some kind of talent, whether it be, brains, artistic ablity, or just a pretty face on a chubby body. I have no natural talent for anything. I know there are guys out there who feel like they are ugly, but there is nothing compared to being an ugly girl. At least guys are taken at face value whether they turn out to be gay or straight or whatever. But a "hot chick" still isn't considered hot unless she has altered her appearance with make-up. It really sucks to be a girl. There is no amount of make-up that will make my face pretty.
Kids I went to school with would have nothing to do with my because I wasn't pretty or athletic or talented in some other way. I was never seen wearing the right clothes either, because I got my sister's hand-me-downs. It was a really lonely childhood with no friends. My only friends in life have been my pets.
I spent my childhood being compared to my older sister. Mother would always say "that's nice honey, but look what Sister did!" or simply, "why can't you be more like Sister?" It was not the motivator that my mother obviously thought it would be, because why would I continue to try if I knew I would never succeed? Needless to say, I have never had a good relationship with her.
This all leads me to where I am right now. I am single and 37. Never been married, hell, I've never even had a BF. The only kinds of jobs I have ever been able to get are crappy, low paying, seasonal or temporary jobs. I am the only sibling in my family to acquire a post high school education. Nothing fancy, just a two year degree (AAS) in accounting at a community college, and I still can't get a decent paying job. So all you suckers out there who think higher education is the answer, I say it is a waste of time and money. Any place I ever worked where there was an opportunity to get promoted (and those places were very few) I was always shot down. Can't have ugly people moving up the ladder, I guess. My best tax year was $25K and that was a couple years ago. I've never made enough money or had steady employment to rent a place. I know I will never be a home owner and I will never retire. I can't even seem to get a job at Walmart.
I tried to kill myself a few years ago and obviously I failed at that as well. I am a true believer that life is pointless. There is no reason for my existence. I'm not smart enough at math and science to be a "rocket" scientist and change the world by curing some disease or inventing something that will change the world. I am not talented enough to go on any talent show and sing or dance my way to success. And I'm not pretty enough to have successful men tripping over themselves lining up to be my spouse. I have nothing. I am nothing. If I had a gun I would end it right now.