Well, where to begin. Here I am spending my weekend writing this, big indicator on how much my life sucks. I am forty, single, no girlfriend. My life was cursed from the day I was born, my innocence taken from me aka being molested by a trusted family member. I have a scar on my face from a childhood accident. I have very few friends, no girls ever show any interest in me, I was always the boring guy out of the group, I have the nice guy syndrome, you know the line, your a nice guy, or I like you as a friend. That was in high school, now I don't even get that far. How much worse can it get? I tried an online dating site, blew 80 something bucks for a few months of service, never got one email from the opposite sex. I tried going to church for a while, hoping to meet new people, but never really felt like I fit in. Churches are geared to meet the needs of married people and every activity seems to revolve around married couples and familys. They had no activities for singles and felt out of place when it came to church events. All I ever wanted out of life was a little slice of happiness, a girlfriend to spend time with. As I get older it looks as if I will end up dying alone. How sad is that? I have some good qualities, I maintain a job, I am financially responsible, I drive a nice car!, but it seems those aren't the qualities girls are looking for. When does it get any better, sometimes I wish I could just sleep and dream and never wake up, I am totally miserable with this life. I hate life.