Let's start off with some facts;
I'm 19 years of age.
I have done nothing with my life.
I am a drop-out
I am a drug addict
The fact of the matter is I've always struggled with depression. It's just lately it's been on and off, Almost mimicking bi-polar disorder. I sit at the computer desk staring at my Facebook and seeing that no one talks to me or even really interacts with my profile at all. I think to myself "Why..."
Why is it all my friend's facebook's are filled with activity and friendship
Why do I even bother anymore. I'm basically living an empty life just trying to make it through each waking day
Why...Why do I live?
The honest truth at this point is....
I don't know who I am and I feel distant from the world. High School,even though I didn't do much, they were my best years. Since then....Nothing. Just bleak nothingness. I feel like I'm just staring into an never ending abyss of bleakness.
I feel, so awfully alone. I barely go out with friends and when I do their definition of "Party" is too different from mine.
I just, I want something in life. I'd like to be able to be like Family Guy, which is a childish thing to say I'm aware of that. If I could just have my tight group of friends like Peter, Quaqmire, and Joe. In-fact I used to. Both of them are distant right now, and I am alone.
I wish things could just go back to the way they used to be or I'd much rather just die.