I am 20 years old, i have no friends, no money, no girlfriend, no job. When i was in middle school and high school i would get beat up from the other kids. I came with my family here in USA before two years and a half. My dad has two bachelors degree one masters degree and works with min. wage in a supermarket during the third shift, my mom before comming in USA used to work in a bank, now has a part time job in a book store. I have a younger brother who is doing good with grades but like me has no absolutly no friends,back home he used to had a lot,now i guess noone wants to approach him cuz he speaks with an accent and plus he secluded himself. My so called friedns from college never call me and i'm usualy who calls them.I am very kind to everybody,if u ask me for something i do it for u. In fact i would do many stuff for my friend in college even giving money and food to them,but I feel they just used me. My mom talled me that she feels sorry for me,since i am 20 and i have nothing comapered to my friends, who are taller than me, have girlfriends, money, they get to spend their summer around different places of the world. My only friend is ciggaretes, even though i buy them once in a while when my dad gives me some money or a friend of him. I have no interst about anything except reading jappanese manga. My mood changes often one day i am happy one day i feel like a piece of shit. But now things start to change, i just finished my first summer course and i got an A(hopefully since i am between A and B). And i have to go back to college to take other two courses. I feel happier now though i know nothing has changed and i am still in a shity position, but my way of thinking has changed, though i have no friends or girlfriends it does not bother me since i am used to it. Now when i feel down i thik smth that makes me happy a good food. I imagine that i am eating delicious food and having a lot of friends and a girlfriend(which is a girl in my college who has a boyfriend) it really makes me happy,and now i never think i can't, but i will. And I am commited to do well the next year in college. So always look at the bright side of your life. God Bless u! | |
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