my life sucks. i am a 14 yearold girl. recently i started to date my friend and he has always liked me and i thought i liked him but the more we hang out together there is nothing there and i cant break up with him cause i know it would kill him. i have no friends that will support me all they ever do is use my for my house pool and food. my best friend... well there is no best friend cause she ditched me because i wasnt like her, i wouldnt do drugs or be a hoe. i wish i had better friends they always lie to me and talk behind my back. and there are days where i can just sit and cry reading all the stuff they say. the closest friend i have is annoying as fuck. my dad is a miner alcoholic and we try and help him but it doesnt work. im on my high school cheer team and i hate it! i hate high school cheerleading i want to go back to my all-star team i miss everyone at my gym! and no one understands it they all just laugh. but cheerleading is my life and having no support doesnt help. i always think about going anorexic but the obnly thing that stops me is my mom i wouldnt want to put her threw that pain in seeing me struggle. people always call me a ghost cause im so white they make jokes about me and make videos. ill laugh it off but inside it kills me and i keep thinking about what they say and it repeats in my head and i cant getit out. i need better friends i need to get out of my relationship and i need my life not to suck. | |
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