Everytime someone asks me how I feel...I can never answer bluntly because even myself never even know.
I know that I am frustrated at the fact that I worked my ass off for my driving permit, a car,and my driver's license and only to have it all taken away from me over some bullshit.
I was so much happier when I had a job,and my car,and money,and then now everything has changed completely. I was being treated like shit by this manager at my shitty job for so long,and so I quit. It's not like I haven't tried to solve anything.
So when I quit, my mom takes my car (because I cant afford the payments) and she took me off the insurance,so I can't drive either. She lied to my doctor saying she took me off because I said that I don't care about what happens to the car,which is complete lie. She took me off to save herself some fucking money.
This shit really pisses me off and I don't even feel like the same person anymore. I don't think I was ever 'happy' but I never felt this low in my life.
I'm really hoping this will go away when I'm older and I hope I'm a more content and happier guy,but I really don't know.
I'm a reject. A misfortunate. I'm a Loner, but I have my days of loneliness like anyone else. I'm a Loner by choice and not by choice.
I had friends growing up as a little kid, but every since I became homeschooled,I haven't had a single friend,and this was in 2008.
Nothing ever goes right for me.Nothing. I can never have anything,because no matter it is,it always ends up going away somehow.
I should have known that all of this was going to occur. I should've known.
I had my independecy and now that's all gone.
I'm right back to being at home all the time, playing guitar and writing songs.The usual. Most of the time,I'm so bored because I enjoyed going out whenever I wanted to,and now that's all over.I'm cursed into not having a job. Prior to quitting,I was already looking for another job and it's been 2 months since I quit and I still don't have anything.
Now all of my goals in life seem so bleak now.