I was born a dirt poor bastard. 22 years later, nothing has changed. I'm so tired of being poor. Every time I get any money I have to help pay my moms bills. We are both broke, no car, no job, and every day is a struggle just to eat. I often can't even afford a bus fare to look for a job, and even when I can I'm put in position where I can not eat all day and go look for a job, or eat 1 meal and not look for work.
I've tried so many ways to escape this. I was working for a long time but even with me working 40 hours a week in hs I couldn't afford a phone or car or anything cause I was always paying bills. So I tried selling drugs and stealing to escape being poor, now I have a criminal record. I'm desperate to get any job but I can't even get work at mcdonalds.
People think I'm a drug addict or something I'M NOT. I'm just extremely manlnourished and sleep deprived, and I'm starting to believe completely insane. If your not a dangerous individual avoid dangerous people like me. I will prey on you because I hate you, I hate myself, and I hate the world. All I know is poverty, isolation, and violence and I'm still trapped here in hopelessness.