I cant seem to get the point across | Posted by anonymous at January 28, 2012 | Tags: Attitude 2012 January |
I am 24 years old... still in community college and so confused about what direction i am headed. I want to be an anesthesiologist but i am not smart enough. School is horrible for me! I never understand a damn thing that they are saying and i always end up getting horrible grades. Everyone thinks that i am such a good student but its all bullshit that i make up to keep them from asking too many questions. Although i love my family and have the best boyfriend in the world... sometimes i just want to die! I have to commute from where i live to where i go to school everyday! and its an hour drive! When i'm not driving or sitting in a classroom with a blank stare i am working... a meaningless job where the people who work there are as annoying as the actual job. i never have a day off and most nights i cant even sleep; no matter how tired i am. I hate all this pressure... im scared of all this pressure... I hate facebook bc i hate seeing all these people whom i went to high school with... their perfect lifes and successfull carees... i love to put more salt in that wound... i have tried cutting but the pain does nothing for me.... have i mentioned that i am fat and ugly??? i believe that if i didnt have my family and my love that i would drive my prius head on to an eighteen wheeler on one of my hour long drives and just end it.... i hate crying myself to bed every other night; when i can sleep of course... i will never be what i and everyone else wants me to be...everyone knows that i am not okay but everyone tries to stay positve and reasure me that everything will be great! oh how i pray to god every night to take my from here and let me go in peace. thank you for letting me bitch! | |
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God uses the weak, the powerless, the hurt, the poor, and the lonely in GREAT ways. Heres a illustration: A potter will take a helpless, lifeless lump of clay and then knead it and squeeze it until it's soft and pliable. And then when he gets it just right, he takes that piece of clay and he does something called throwing, where he places the clay on a spinning table.
As that clay is placed upon that turning wheel, the potter's hands then begin to pressure the clay and work it until he makes something beautiful out of that old ugly piece of clay.
God is the true master craftsman. He is a potter who is making something beautiful out of every life. He will take the old ugly mistakes and sins and make them into something completely new!
When you truly know God, you can live victoriously! So whatever the ugliness is in your life, be assured that through the blood of Christ, God molds you and makes you into something beautiful! Many people can testify to how God has changed them. Ive never heard of anyone regretting putting their faith in jesus.
Are you saved? God can turn the worst of situations into good! Joeseph was left for dead and put into slavery by his brothers, he was abandonded, afraid, probably thought his life was over. But he trusted God, he then eventually became second in command of Egypt. Without looking into the future it can be hard to be optimistic. If you put your faith with jesus he wont abandon you, he will love you and give you a new life. All you have to do is accept jesus as your lord and savior and ask for forgiveness of your sin, he will wash away all your sin (everyone has sin, i'm not judging you by what I say).
Jesus knows your pain, because he went through all the different pains possible when he was tortured and then nailed to a cross. He layed down his life for me and you, so that we can have eternal life in heaven. All we have to do is accept him as our lord and savior and ask for forgiveness for our sin. Jesus loves you with love that cant be compared, he loves you so much that he died for you. He can change you. He changes people every single day. You can say that one of his job descriptions is "Life Changer". He knows your trouble, he cares for you, and he wants you to know him. He will comfort us when there seems to be no comfort available. He is our friend when everyone else seems to not care, he provides for us when we are without, and he gives us strength when we are weak. He washes away all our sin when we have lived sinfilled lives. He is offering the gift of everlasting life in heaven free of charge, its your choice whether you accept his offer.
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