Life was difficult to begin with. My mother was a native, my father white. I'm pretty sure her pregnancy with me was a "hook" to try and ensure my dad wouldn't leave. Didn't work. They split soon after, my dad keeping me while she went back to the reservation. I ended up living with my grandmother until I was 8. Moved in with my dad when he finally got himself situated, having a house and a girlfriend, her parents and brother sharing the household. Unfortunately, my father was the marine type, always demanding I be an adult even at only 10 years of age. Always turbulent, I can't remember a single time I've really been happy around him. My maturity was adversely affected, anytime I was out of his sight, I would goof off more than I ought to. Also his constant badgering about how other people were inferior, that we're better then them (them meaning pretty much every other group of people, especially gays, blacks and jews), made me feel superior to my peers as a kid. Damn glad I opened up my mind, I happen to have a plethora of friends with vastly different backgrounds. Moved back with granny when I couldn't take any more of his shit. Spent a year blissfully useless though. I got restless, unsatisfied with having a minimum wage low hour job. Met a girl online who has Aspergers syndrome, but I didn't let that stop our relationship from forming. Sick of being a burden to anyone, sick of being too disorganized for community college, I moved out to live with her and her mother. The catch? They're poor as hell, and it's my job to pull both their asses out of poverty. They're literally living in a basement. Unfortunately it's impossible for me to find a job, the ones I CAN get being shitty work for shitty pay. I've always done my part for society. I was an Eagle Scout, a Red Cross volunteer, and even a disaster relief trainee. I'd always lend a hand when someone needed it. Why can't I get anywhere? I'm only 20, but I feel like I'm doomed to a lower class lifestyle for the rest of my life. What could possibly help me? Where can I go from here? | |
-God bless
have you thought about joining the army? they will even help pay for your college. if that is not for you, then i suggest going back to community college ASAP, getting any type of job and SAVING the $$$ for YOU. NOT for your GF or her mother. you're only a BOY. you are not a MAN or her husband who has to support her, let alone her mother. you said you could only get shitty jobs. WELL DUH! you only have a HS education and the economy is not really great right now, so what do u expect?
and please use protection while having sex, you don't want to end up with a baby to support as well. think about what you are doing. you are young and have so much ahead of you. get your education. do NOT make bad choices that may seem like the thing to do now, but trust me when i say that you will regret it in the future.
GOOD LUCK!
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