When my son was murdered my whole life fell apart. My mind has been so messed up I can't keep a job must less find one. I isolate from everyone and at the same time I am lonely. I hate my life. Since I was fired from my last job things went from bad to worse. My utilities are being turned off and I am losing my house along with my mind. So many bad things have happened lately and the pain is becoming unbearable and all I want to do is die. I wrote this letter tonight to the person who killed my son. No one was ever arrested and now it is a cold case. I would like to share my letter.
You are the lowest piece of scum on earth. You only think of yourself and you are very selfish and evil. As a matter of fact you should not have the pleasure of awakening to another day, seeing the sun rise or seeing your first child being born. I wish I could take that away from you and all you love because you don't deserve it. Instead everyday should bring you misery and pain because that is what you did to me the day you brutally murdered my son.
I know you have not been caught yet but I know who you are and how I would love to torture you to death. I have been tortured everyday since you murdered my son. I hate you and everything you love. The hatred is deep in my soul. You did not just kill my son, you hurt everyone who loved him. I could not and never will forgive you. See, you stole my life that day and I blame every horrible thing that has happened to me on you ever since you took him from me. You shattered my faith, how can I believe in a God that would let that happen? I live in hell everyday without him. I want to kill myself but that would only hurt my family worse and I could never be as selfish as you.
I have not been the same since you took him from me. My head is so messed up that I don't know what I am doing most of the time. You have ruined me financially and I am losing everything. What are THINGS compared to human life? I know you don't know the answer to that. I don't go out and enjoy things anymore because there is no joy without him. See, you took that away from me too.
I am afraid to give love another chance because I am afraid that will be taken from me too. I am so lonely sitting here all by myself but I can't take the chance of getting hurt. I could never stand that kind of pain again. My heart is so hardened that if I tried to love again, I don't think I could. See, you took that from me too.
Because you murdered my son, I spoiled my daughter because of the guilt you placed upon me. I would not have done, or let her do, half of the things I did if you had not taken him from me. That was no justice for her because it has just made her life that much more difficult. Her life was already difficult and painful enough because you murdered her brother. You crushed her heart and I blame you for every bad thing that happens to her.
I wish you were dead and burning in hell! But NO your sorry selfish and evil self is still walking the streets. You have no idea what you have done to me. I wish with all my might that someday some other evil and selfish person will murder your child so you could get some idea how it feels to have your heart ripped out of your chest. Oh, I forgot you don't have a heart but I will keep wishing anyway.
See, you had no idea how your actions would effect others when you decided to murder my son that Halloween night. I wish dread, misery and pain like you have never felt before on you for the rest of your miserable existence.