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Posted by anonymous at February 14, 2012
Tags: Anxiety  2012 February  Relationship

I loved him. He loved me. We were meant to be together. But then his visa ran out, and he was forced to move back to Australia. He was anticipating on renewing it, and was going to move back within the year. But he got a job, and then he got a promotion. His life was progressing. My life wasn't in motion, I was waiting on his return. I have always had depression, and have been taking antidepressants since I was 13 years old. But he was like a natural antidepressant, when I was with him I would forget my anxieties.

But yesterday, I got the worst news of my life.
He was going to be a father. He wouldn't be able to return.
I have never been this depressed before, and that is saying something.
He says that we can be together, but I will have to move there. I want to do that, but I wasn't anticipating that, and don't have the money.
Plus, I think it'd just break my heart even more being around him raising a baby that isn't mine.

I just don't know what to do. I don't want anything at all besides to be with him. I cannot get myself together.
I break down inside whenever I remember.

I need help. Again.
This depression is back, and is ever lasting, it seems.


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By anonymous at 22,Feb,12 21:57

Hes a goddamn loser. You should have made plans to go there way before that happened. But then again its really no big loss. Maybe you should have talked more because I don't know how the hell he could be having relationships and you not know really unless the communcation sucked. He's a guy. I assume you have a job and live on your own. Be happy you don't depend on a guy like that and stuck. You were NOT meant to be together. He cheated on you for frigs sakes. How would he take it if the situation were re3versed? would he come back if YOU had a baby in the meantime? Move on PLEASE!
By anonymous at 22,Feb,12 22:18

The time difference makes it difficult to communicate. But I understand what you're saying, it's true.

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 08:20

Australia is a great country, even if it doesn't work out, move there and you'll find a much more rich and happy life than you currently have.

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 08:35

You have to think to yourself i'm doing all this for him but would he do the same for me? Could I trust him after what he's done and could I accept a baby that's not mine? If the answer is no you should move on and wait for a man who would do anything for you and treat you the way you deserve.

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 10:34

You really needa move on. being depressed over a guy is not worth it. SERIOUSLY.... your wasting your time, if not gonna come back then way the hell are you cryinn over him. there are many guys out there, he's not the only one... trust me!

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 11:44

Wow sorry to hear this. :(

Love hurts...there is no suffering like a broken heart. Only you can decide what to do, but the trust is probably gone. That would take time to build back up...but the baby would be a constant reminder...and who is the mother? Does he love her?
By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 17:38

No, they aren't together. They don't get along at all.

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 11:58

Whether she is wasting her time or not, you cannot turn love on & off at the drop of a hat. Those who say you can, have never been in love.
By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 14:54

Shes gonna be broken one way or another and she needs to show the world that she doesn't take bs, or shes never gonna be treated with respect. He didnt love her enough to keep it in his pants. I hear guy lamenting about love here and beating themselves up over a woman that never loved him, thinking what could they have done different. This guy is not one of them. He doesn't have true love for her and he would NOT do the same. I dare her to try it. I dare her to say shes pregnant would it still be okay to come over and live there?
By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 15:23

I know what you're saying & I agree with ya...just meant that its not easy to say okay I am never going to think of this person again. Your mind knows what is right, and what is right is this guy is an asshole...but her heart doesn't understand that yet.

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 12:00

i cant live without you is false
i love you until i Die :)

love him until u Die.... But Live your life because you are the only person responsible to your Life.

Love will help you, and it will never let you Down...

God Bless u and start a new Life:)

Edward Addicted to Love
By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 14:55

That made no sense.
By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 15:14

Lol no doubt.

By anonymous at 23,Feb,12 12:08

Love lets people down everyday.

By Nadia at 23,Feb,12 15:15

Don't let someone be your priority while you are only an option to them. This is a cliche saying but it's perfect for you. You based your all life and happiness around this one guy and obviously he did not feel the same way about you. Who knows how many women he has slept with since he went back to Australia? You were moping around and waiting for him, while he was screwing around different women and having unsafe sex getting some girl pregnant. Is this really the type of guy you claim to love? Think about it. Makes you look bad and you're even considering moving to Australia to be with this jerk? Are you CRAZY? Get some meds for your depression. There are plenty of fish in the sea. Time heals all wounds and in the future, you will look back and be grateful that you did not get with this jerk.

In the meantime, read some of the other stories on this site and be happy that you don't have it as bad as the other people on here.

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