I'm 22 and I have no friends. I haven't had any friends for the past 4 years. Looking at my contact list on my phone, there are only 3 contacts...my mum, dad and the house phone. I go out on Friday nights just to stroll around town and look at everyone else having fun. I stay in on Saturday's and just read books or watch documentaries. I have no one to talk to.
I'm broke. I have £1.50 in my purse right now. No bank account as I got scammed on gumtree.com...so my bank closed my account when the cheque bounced, and now no bank will let me open an account. I will never be able to get a loan or a mortgage. I have student loan debts and a biology degree which I can't even get a job with.
I can get guys but as soon as they find out I have no friends, they run. It's not normal to have no friends at 22, after all. Can't blame them.
My dad is always rude to me, calling me names and shouting at me for no reason. He's fake in front of his friends but as soon as they go, he ignores me unless he wants to shout and verbally abuse me or tell me to fuck off.
My mum is ill. She has had many cancer scares over the years as it runs on her side of the family. She also has a bad back and joints. It makes me feel so horrible...she deserves the best yet she has a piece of shit like me as a child. I would have killed myself long ago if it weren't for her. She told me she couldn't go on if she didn't have me. If it weren't for that, I'd not hesitate to kill myself right now.