LIFE SUCKS

Sick of it all...

I'm 23 and in grad school. I have had an eating disorder for 11 years now. I'm surprised I haven't died yet. I'm clinically depressed and feel like there is no purpose to life. I get suicidal thoughts constantly but can't allow myself to do it. My brother died from cancer when I was younger so the thought of my parents losing both their children is what's stopping me. I'm on meds, talk to a psychiatrist and therapist but cant seem to make any progress. I am sick of life and constantly forcing myself to go through the motions of life. I can't sleep at night and want to be just done with everything.