I might turn 23 next month. I am a single white male. The thing that honestly really bothers me is the fact that i've only had sex 10 times in the past 4 years, and have not had sex for 2 and a half years. Before that I only was with my girlfriend who I lost my virginity to a few dozen times, but she dumped me and I later found out she had been sleeping with my best friend. I am a good looking guy and I just hate how I never get any action, its just the one thing I want in life and I never get it. I try so fucking hard at life too, so hard. I have done a lot of bad things in my life, but I've changed my ways God, why have you continued to punish me for so long? I'm probly going to pull the plug on my life here sometime in the next few month, burning coal in a sealed room seems like the easiest choose. I used to hear about people killing themselves and think "why theres so much to live for" when I hear about now I just think "man hes lucky not to be here anymore" I really dont have any friends, in the past year ive gone out less than 5 times for something social. All I do is work, watch TV, go shopping, workout, eat, watch porn, an thats it. I was a drug addict from around the time I was 13 till about 21, but I've been clean now for over a year and a half. I was clean for about the same amount of time before, but went back to it because I was hating life. This time I think I'm just gonna do a little inside barbecuing. | |
What the hell? You're young. You've got a job, you're good looking, and you're in shape. Honestly, grow some cojones and go to POF (Plenty of Fish) Free online dating. Find yourself a girl, go have some fun, wear a condom, and fucking get the idea of killing yourself outta your head!
That's CRAZY TALK. You need some love, that's all. Go find it and stop wasting time doing drugs and surfing porn.
Go on. Go. Go do it now!
Cursed
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God bless man
Here's the thing though, I didn't slog my way up the beaches of San Luchista con mujera de la Nocho with waterlogged war boots and a misfiring 30 ought so whiney little pukes like you could cry on intArweb posting places from e-mails! I'd like to shove my warboot so far up your ass you could tie my bootlaces with your tongue!
I hate you
As for suicide, the majority of people who attempt suicide due to psychological trauma but who's attempt(s) fail report how it was the biggest mistake in their life and they're glad they weren't successful. I've been so lonely for four or so years, and I'm severely frustrated at the lack of sex I've been getting over the same period despite being quite attractive, and I know I have other underlying issues I need to deal with, but I am 99% sure I wouldn't commit suicide, if just for the fear that I was one of those people who's life is due to improve dramatically, but I cut it short by a successful attempt.
You had the strength to kick a drug habit, twice. You have the strength to channel all the energy you're putting into hating life into changing it for the better. I can tell you've already taken the first step in this process by recognising the bad things you've done, but it seems you've got stuck here, which is not surprising if you think about it. I can tell you that at the lowest points, it takes an enormous amount of energy to make what can seem like a very small difference. If you recognise this, then you can be proud of making these small changes, because of the amount of effort you spared.
Ok, so I said no one can tell you what to do, but if I could suggest one thing that really helped me kick-start the process, it was going easy on myself and allowing other people to hold me to task instead. I was lucky enough to find someone I could risk trusting with that, but until I did, I had a great time clearing my conscience, kicking back and trying hard not to do anything I didn't want to. It was a huge relief and gave me a lot more head-space to work through my problems. Hopefully you're already doing this automatically, but if not, don't be so hard on yourself.
I hope you're still around in a months time.
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