All the times I wonder why I feel Bad every day and night.... i look at the reflection of my face at the glass of jack daniels.... i see a short 5'1, fat, ugly, battered, tattooed, hairy, loser living in his parent's house.... i always wonder why my life sucked...... Im ANGRY outside and inside SAD.... im poor and got fired as a bagger at grocery store after 1 week....... it was my first job at age 21...... i have lost all contacts of my old and only friends from high school.... dropped out of college... and lieing to my parents that im going to community college now but, IM NOT..... I don't want to... I hate School... in high school i got some in school and out of school suspensions and disciplinary actions for robbing other kids and fighting... i been in Juvie when i was 17 to 18 and repeat 2 years of my senior year.... My parents were so angry and disappointed with me.... i told them lies i will get help and change my life around... 2 years from today... im the same loser now since back then.... Just a week ago i had a knife and threatened a store clerk for money... he didn't give me the money so i went to the cooler grabbed a glass beer and chucked it at him... he then kept saying please get out get out with his arms folded begging.. i ran out... and hid near my neighbors backyard to make sure no cops saw me cross side streets by jumping fences.... TOday im so sick of what i AM.... A loser Scum... inside im sad and desperate and outside just pissed at people... all rich and happy people... I got nothing to live for and think suicide be the best thing for me | |
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