LIFE SUCKS

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I need to vent so I found this page.
My life is so challenging. In 2007 I was in a motocross accident that left me a T4 paraplegic complete. That means I cannot feel or move anything from my nipples down. It caused extensive nerve damage which causes severe spasms and chronic nerve pain. I have to take 35 pills a day just so I can get out of bed. I have no control of my bowels or bladder and I have to guess when I have to pee. I get urinary tract infections often and I usually visit the hospital one week a year or more due to complications from my paralysis.
One of the worst parts of it all is I didn't realize how good my life was until this happened. I had a lot of the same complaints I've read a lot of you have. My relationship with my family and friends have changed so much. I'm a huge burden financially on my parents and I need their help a lot. All the shit I took for granted is gone. I had to get paralyzed to realize how good my life was. I can't snowboard anymore, hike, or ride dirt bikes. Those were my 3 passions. Women want little to do with me. I can't find a job, I spend a lot a time alone and I love socializing. Being such high para I have no abdominal muscle, which in return means my balance sucks. Any sports I try are very difficult.
There is a lot more to it. To everyone that reads this, be nice to the disabled. This can happen to anyone. Second, some of the problems I have read here are not that big of a deal. If you don't like something, do the best you can to change them. Most people get a second chance with their mistakes they make. Shit, there are murders and even rapist that get a second chance after they serve their time. I will never get a second chance. I have been making the best of this new life. It is not an easy life.
Thanks for reading this and letting me vent. I hope who ever read this understands that some of your problems are not that serious. Don't sweat the small stuff, because it's all small stuff.
M.S.D