I am adopted.
I am gay, still in the closet because my parents are church ministers.
I have no friends.
I am not clever nor am I sporty.
I got depression.
I got nothing special.
I hate my life, just wish I can be somebody. Even if i only have looks, which I don't.
How can God be soo unfair... I can't really take this bullshit anymore
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Most of you won't understand what I am going through. I don't want to be rejected again like I was by my real parents. The thought of my mum and dad kicking me out after I come out is going to break me even more, and it is also going to break them. I think my mum sort of knows, she saw me watching all the coming out stories in youtube, but she pretends that nothing happened.
I don't know what to do. To continue living a lie and hopefully get married like a normal person, but I know I am going to be sad. Or to risk my family and the only friends that I have...
Life is not that bad. I bet if you put some effort into finding friends, you could do it... Tell your folks your gay, they will have to deal with it and it will ease your mind. You can't hide your feelings forever- As for the depression, go to your doctor. They can prescribe you an anti-depressant. Take it. You'll feel better, and when you find that you're strong and feeling happier, ween yourself off the meds...
Paxil worked for me- I took it just long enough to stop curling up in a ball and crying all day...
God- is wonderful, but you have to help yourself- because sometimes, God, is just too busy with other things...
Good luck kid-
Cursed
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