Every day i wake up to depression.
I have a part time job as a server but it does not pay my bills witch makes me even more depressed.
Thought of killing my self run free through my mind i have all ready thought of a way to kill my self but have not gone through with it.
I have tried to talk to people about how i am feeling but to me it seems like eather they dont want to hear about my problems or they are to busy and dont really care.
My friend of 17 years has been the only person that i can open up to but when i talk about this with him he changes the subject.
I have no goals in my life i have a diploma from graduating high school i have tried to talk classes at a community collage but nothing seems of interest to me and i end up losing hope and stop going.
all that runs through my mind is killing my self im still living at home with my parents and when i try to talk to them about this they yell a swear and want to argue with me about this I dont really know why im even typing on here not like anyone really will care.
4 months away from hitting 30 and i still have nothing going for me makes me feel worthless
i cant find any reason to live for and each day drags on longer and longer i cant tell you enough how much i hate my life
then to top it all off i have a learning disability and H.A.A.D.D (Witch stands for hyper active attention deffest disorder) ya i know ill prob have people say get off the computer or stop complaining but i dont care i need to let this out.I wish i knew what to do its hard living a life that makes no sense to you and all you want to do is just die.