LIFE SUCKS

Alone and broken

Being alone is the hardest burden to bare. Its like being in a glass box watching life pass you by with out even noticing you or asking you to join in.

As a child i didn't get much affection. That was because my mother was a drug addict and my father had to work all the time to support three kids. At 6 years of age my father,brother, and I walked in to the house to my mother laying in a pool of her own blood ranting hysterically. She was trying to kill herself and was interrupted by the only two people that loved her and blamed us for her having to continue living. Shortly after that about 2 years or so she leaves us. At 3 years old i was diagnosed with kidney disease and had to deal with being in and out of the hospital and a bad mother. As a child life was really tough because i had a hard time telling when to pee so i would often have a wet ring on the crotch of my pants and as a result my brother and all the kids in my neighborhood would call me the ringmaster and play tricks on me tie me up and never let my play with them. School was the same thing although i had my bladder under control that just wasn't good enough because i still was an outcast all the way through high school. But in High school i had pot so that helped. Now i'm 24 and still alone. I'm not ugly i'm a great listener i'm understanding responsible and very intelligent yet still i have no one to love.