I hate my fucking life!
First of all, Due to being unemployed for roughly half a year, I have to live with my psycho mother. Thats right, Im nearly 30 years old and I had to move in with mom again because the economy is fucked beyond belief. There are practically no damn jobs hiring. What makes it worse, is she currently lives in a two bedroom apartment, 1 room is hers, the other is occupied by my bitch sister. So I am stuck in the living room with ZERO privacy. They both constantly talk down to me like I am a loser, when they cant get their shit together themselves. Damn hypocrites.
But thats not even the worst of it!! My mom is a compulsive hoarder. Have you ever seen that show "Hoarders?" Guess what, thats the same problem my mom has! So I have to sleep on a couch around piles & MOUNTAINS of useless junk that she collects. She refuses to throw any of it away. I cant even walk around in the apartment. I cant throw her stuff away because she will freak out on me and kick me out. She wants all the useless crap around, she obviously has mental problems.
What makes matters worse is I am in extreme debt with Student loans because (years ago) after I graduated, the jobs in my field went away due to the fucked up economy. Awesome timing huh? I graduate and then the economy gets fucked. Now there are no jobs worth a shit. So for the last several years the only job I could get, was for a shitty company that barely paid anything. They finally laid me off 6 months ago and I have not been able to get a job since. As for my debt? Well how will I pay them with out a job? My credit is fucked now for life. Im screwed.
The only friends I had in my life have pretty much moved on. They are married now or moved away and have problems of their own. They don't give a shit about me anymore. I have only had 4 girlfriends in my life. The last two where whores with serious drinking & drug issues. They both cheated (which is why I call them whores).
I have never used drugs, I don't drink. I don't hurt other people. I am just trying to get my life together, but every time I try to I get fucked over again and again! Now Im an adult that lives with a psycho mother with tons of compulsive problems, and I cant find a damn job to move back out of this fucking dump! I hate my life. Honestly most days I feel like Id rather just be dead.