I have never been so poor, in debt & 53cents in my pocket book. Dec. 10, 2011
I can't help but feel so helpless.
I don't want anyone to know it me!
Here is my story. Just not the lowest facts & details; always more to a story that's not always shared.
I'm 38 years old from East Grand Forks. I was laid off in 200x. My husband and I have been married for xx years. We have x amazing children. My Husband was laid off this year. Both my husband and I are jobless and searching.
It sucks: Living in an old house. It's cold and the plumbing is terrible.
We are struggling to find the money to pay for: gas for our vehicle and insurance, mortgage and insurance on our home, all our utilities, and find a way to feed our family.
Sure there are programs to help people in need, someone like me? right?
Then why can't I get help?
The Services in our area don't go out of there way to full fill needs, they only act like it. Trying to get food help has been such a challenge.
Only when I threatened to make a complaint to the county after several requests, did we receive more food stamps. Yes, it's embarrassing for me shopping locally.
In September, our family of 6, I thought should have receive more then $250.00 for food help. When attempted was denied at the E G F food shelf in September for not having the PKM or the Marshall Polk Water bill (paid bills to get them turned back on.) But because the other seven bills I brought with weren't good enough. (Will I ever volunteer there again? NOT! - they all knew me. So why was I sent away with nothing?) As I sat in the car, my children asked why I was crying, so I told them. A lady I had worked with there had gone to heaven so mommy was sad. That was a lie.
As if that wasn't enough I went right back over to my case worker, explained what happened and still with tears; she said, "I wish I knew what to do." Again, I walked away.
I should have her job, there isn't anything I wouldn't do for anyone.
I have worked at over 30 jobs in the area starting when I was 13 years old.
Is that too many jobs for the average person? Lots of experience and yet I'm so willing to learn more. I feel I wasted time going to college because of the 2000+ jobs in this town didn't hire me.
Bad luck has hit me and I can't break free. I don't even pray any more. Driving has been minimal. My soul strong willed.
Signed up for help from local program for the children's presents, and they somehow didn't get dropped off for us. So besides that, after asking around, I can't find my family a tree this year! so we are going to share Christmas alone and watch our home movies.
I will make the best of it! For my children, my husband and myself.
Jobs are in the future. As soon as we can.
Plans for remodeling and a new car will just have to wait.