Iam from a typical indian joint family. My childhood was so hopeless and pointless, that i dont even remember a single good or even bad event. I came up to college and made some new friends. It was like a start over & I dont even have a clue what I was before. Because no one even cares if I exist. At times I feel I really dont exist. Not that I am unattractive or something. I am not worse for sure, am an average guy.
Now I got into a job after colg. No one in the office wants to speak to me in a friendly manner. Every one for the sake of work or as if I am some acquaitence. But I always say to myself 'I dont giv a shit to what they think about me'. They are not even thinking ofcorse. My friends I made in colg are the only friends, like 5 guys, who really have known me much.
Admist all this shit, thinking of a girl is not my thing. When ever a girl speaks up to me I feel very nervous and stupid. try to control all this nervousness and blushing coz I now who i am inside. Anyways I dont want to drag this any longer.
I dont believe in GOD although I couldn't deny HIM. I am agnostic. But I dont know why one has to lead such a boring and uneventfull life through out.
Yes this life of mine might seem quite normal to you. But this aint so good or worse(both are eventfull, mine is atuck in between, and at the end of the day I dont know what I want or with what I feel better in life.