28
no career
keep getting to about 6 months - 1 year in a relationship before girlfriends suddenly ask for long distance relationship but actually break up with me. It's cos I am a loser. Live with parents. Cant decide what i want to do. Smoke pot. I have worked heaps of crappy min wage jobs the last two years just to be in work but that doesnt seem to help with my image.
pathetic. she is as bad as me tho, this one. i thought it would be okay because she is also 28 and has no clue in life but all of a sudden she is above me and going to try... she lives in germany. if we break up this time i will definately end my life. i can not imagine her getting a fancy job and getting shagged rotten by some successful proper man. no way. i can not live again with that. i almost ended my life last time. its like exactly the same thing is happening again.
i can not bare to look people in the face. family, or collegues, friends. i am this pathetic label of someone who had the capacity to be something but just copped out because he was afraid. yet i am still capable or loving and trusting.. but you cant trust any girl with this stuff. they will all do the same thing eventually. all women just want stability and normality, no matter who it is with. its not even about love. its just about looking normal. | |
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