LIFE SUCKS

feeling lonely

I'm 26 years old girl. Now i'm feeling like to go somewhere and scream loudly. 3 years before my marriage got fixed with a boy . I was working in my native and he forced me to search job in his place . I got a job in his place and i shifted by thinking that we can meet alternate days. But things changed drastically and hardly 4 or 5 times he came to saw me. after few months he told me that his mother is not interested and he also in this relation and he left me. it was a shock to me and i was addicted to sleeping pills . my friends advised me and gradually i stopped usage of pills.. and started concentrating on my work . Then one person proposed me and told that he knows everything about me and he wont make me cry again because one girl ditched him and he knows the pain . so i fell in his words.. after i entered to his relation he started first 3 months it was like heaven and after that he started contacting his previous girl. ofcourse i became possessive and started fighting. may be i irritated him a lot :( . he started telling he'll marry me after her marriage and he used to show me her photos and his all accounts were of her name. by seeing tis i contacted her and i forced her to come back to his life .. only this much i can do for him.. but she was not ready . she told me that she is seeing him as a brother now. i donno wat that means?? how we can see a past love relation ship as brother???. but day by day her things started haunting me and i totally become mad now and i came to know from her that he went to her house when i was with him. what i should do??.. i know he loved me a lot and me too. He is telling that he is loving me sincere and the relationship with her is just a friendship..but i cant trust him..i dont have any problems in his past .but he is doing this when im there with him.. i donno really whether to trust him or not .. please help me