i am 21. in these 21 years i dont really get what the fuck i have got or earned in my life. or even worse i dont know what the hell i am gonna be in future. from 6 years i am out of my familly, specialy far from my mother( the only one who cares about me and loves me and i do the same for her) well... i call her sometimes, the only question everytime she asks me "when you are comming home?" because we miss eachother alot. it seems so simple being with the person you really love, or atleast visiting someone that you love, but in the fucking reall life things are so different. so in these 6 years i have no result of what i did. as i couldnt study and have not been helped in my past, i cant deal with this life in order to improve now. i have got very difficulty a fucking job, by changing many others in the late 2 years, just not to sleep on the street. i just cant go on by this fucking life, a shitty work, no girlfriend, no real friends around me, no familly and with loneliness. when i am alone because of too much intentions i continously smoke even i dont understand why i am smoking. maybe i am not the poorest or the smallest person in this fucking world, but when you are in these conditions, among the people who are born in a rich familly and obviously when their children grow up they have a brilliant life(definately with problems), on that time it really sucks. | |
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