I had been a heroin addict . I finally got clean 10 years ago. I thought wow I finally got clean life is going to be great now my family trusts me, my kids love me, I have a great guy who loves me and I am a home owner which is awesome. but about 5 years into getting clean my back started hurting bad. I had to beg the doctors to give me an MRI and they found out I have a bulging disk and a bone hitting a nerve so I have sciatica and pain and numbness in my legs. And the doctors cant help me and my insurance wont pay for anything not even one day of physical therapy. they denied me surgery they denied me therapy they denied my scooter so I can get out of the house. well to make a long story short the pain is incredible and it keeps getting worse arthritis setting in the bones. they say I have degenerative disk disease but now I am on methadone and oxycodone and muscle relaxers and antidepressants. It just keeps getting worse and now that I can barely walk a block without sweating and sitting down. I have gained weight and then that makes it worse. Now I have a new problem my thumb locks up on me they call it trigger finger and the doctor did cortisone treatments but now my wrist skin is collapsing what in the heck is going on am I being punished for my past. i have got to the point that the only reason I get out of bed is to take care of my kids my girls 14 and 18 and my son who is 4 who doesn't understand why mommy cant run and play or walk to the park.? I have to drive him there and watch him play and it breaks my heart that I dont even know if I want to live another day but I know they need me. Doctors cant help me I have begged God to help me but I just sit around waiting to die. | |
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Girl, I am hoping for you that things will get alright and I am sure things will get alright. Maybe you can get a loan (make sure you can repay) and when you're all better you can get a job and work together with your husband to repay the debts. Knowing the economy, it will be hard, but it is a solution and maybe your family wants to support you too.
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