I have always been a good student but a patient of anxiety and social phobia since childhood.
When I was small I didn't think about it because I didn't know what anxiety is.
In all my engineering time, I kept of studying...day and night.
In my 3 year, I got anxiety period, I felt horrified even to go to groceries store.
That continued till the end of college.
How I managed to pass the exams, I cant explain anyone.
After I completed my engineering, my anxiety got a bit low. I kept on studying.
Coz of fear and anxiety, I took a local job instead of good ones coz of anxiety.
I kept on studying.
After 2 years I decided to go to big city for a job, but when I left my current job, I got sad and anxious again and had to take medication !
After getting numb by these medicines, I went to a big city with my mom !
Lol, can u imagine ! I went with my 60+ years old mom while I was a 25 years old young man!
anyways my anxiety got worse and finally after 5 months I gave up the job. In all those 5 months I kept on studying and finally thought that my hard work is paying me.
But unfortunately after 5 months I had to come back to my home.
Now for the last 1 year, I am jobless but still I am studying ! lol
Dont know if I will just keep on studying only in my life and will ever earn a penny out of it.
When my friends are earning 10's of thousand rupees, I am just sitting at my home and eating the food earned by hard work of my bro.
I am dying everyday. Dont know what to do now.
God is unfair with me.