Hello,
I am a 24 year old girl african girl, i will describe myself as tall slender beautiful and averagely smart. My main problem is that i have NO friends, my whole life i have never had a best friend, i have had a friend who i call a best friend but he was a guy in high school with a crush on me, we got over this and became friends but we have never been close. I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH MEN , every guy i have date has been head over heals and instantly wants to live with me for years.. i have only lived with or dated Caucasian men, one for 2 years and now this guy for the past year and a half, he is gorgeous with beautiful blue eyes tall, and a scorpio (hot sex) but he has lost ALL his hair at 24 and that bothers me a lot! i love HAIR on a man. I love this guy he is perfect in every other way except his hair! it hurts me because i feel i am being too artificial! Back to my main problem, i went to college in a graphic design school which cost me almost 100 k in student loans i could not pay it because the recession hit and i could not find a job so my credit score is now 510 :(. I finALLY recovered from That and realized that my passion in life is working with special needs children and i am acquiring my masters in that right now i will be done next year ans finally start making the money i deserve 60k a year but i just hate life because i do not have anyone to call when things get bad except my parents (who love and support me have been married for 25 years) my brother, my boyfriend or this one girlfriend who i dont really have a connection with. I WANT TO BE THE GIRL WITH LOTS OF FRIENDS! and i am scared i will be the girl with no bridesmaid at her wedding! it hurts i just want to make girlfriends but i dont know how or whats wrong with me, i am starting to feel like a looser i am turning 25 in two weeks and still never had a girl best friend! i am a teachers aide right now but i lie and tell everyone i am teacher, i just can not wait to be a teacher making 60 k so i can finally afford all the things i want. funny thing is i would make a GREAT teacher, i have tried so hard since graduating college to make more money then 30 k a year in the DC area. My boyfriend is not a DC native and he also make 30 k a year in this are we are considered poor, paycheck to paycheck. WHEN WILL ALL THIS CHANGE, i just want a best friend, i was also not born here i cam here when i was about 12. for the last year i have has two jobs while pursuing my masters this stres shas caused me to ruin my beautiful skin with acne. WHAT SHOULD I DO? | |
Also, you should remove the word "deserve" from your vocabulary and replace it with the word "earn."
You could write a book of your life story. It sounds fascinating. I'd like to read it. I'm sorry you feel friendless, maybe you are just unusual that's why it's hard to find soul mates. I mean unique. So just focus on your creativity and friends will come one day.
I've learned 3 languages + english, I'm finishing a masters degree and I'll be working for the UN by next year helping those who suffer. TO ME, YOU ARE A FUCKING DISGRACE, PEOPLE LIKE YOU MAKE ME ASHAMED OF AFRICA. I would punch you the face if I were next to you, and someone will one day hurt you if you go on being and ignorant bitch, a superficial cunt who annoys people about acne. YOu don't deserve shit, specially not friends. And you will NEVER have any friends EVER. And why do you feel the need to share with everyone that you only date white guys, what is that all about you STUPID WHORE? Why do you say that ?! You're such a retard, I don't know if I have to laugh or punch walls but you make me ashamed and yeah, I'll say it again YOU'LL NEVER HAVE ANY FRIENDS
Please ignore all the spiteful abusive comments and dont reply to them.
Your self esteem is extremely low and you try to big yurself up by saying how pretty you are etc. This will not make you any real friends. People respond to vulnerability and modesty. It doesnt matter how pretty you are, your words about baldness show that you are shallow.
This is a huge turn off for people. You are making a huge mistake as you are only showing the unpleasant side of yourself. If there is another side to you then let it show.
Looks and money are all you seem to value and that is what you will sow in return. If you really want to make friends you must change your views and develop some humility. Think about other people and do good things for them, not just for yourself.
If you really are as shallow and self deserving as you make yourself out to be then I despair for your future.
On the other hand if you have the will to change your attitude then you will find people will give you a second chance.
Remember this quote. "People are beautiful because we love them, we do not love them because they are beautiful".
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