LIFE SUCKS : 2010 July

Seriously?

I can't believe there is an actual website dedicated to people ranting about there pathetic lives. Not to say mine isn't pathetic. There is a much MUCH MUCH bigger picture out there people. Look at our country (U.S) I'ts falling in shambles with no end in sight. Yet there are people who are so consumed with there own personal agony they can't even see it. Unemployment hasn't ended.... Congress went on fucking vacation before voting for tier 5 extended benefits. Hell I still had a balance on tier 4 and they have stopped mine. How does that happen? Congress is more important then the president, and they all stop and take a week long fucking vacation while incalculable Americans are stuck wondering WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE GOING TO DO? You think the economy is bad now? Wait till that oil spill takes it toll. People are getting sooooo angry but for all the wrong reason, and at all the wrong people. One of the biggest problems, isn't racism its class-ism. All of us poor bastards need start realizing who the real fucking problem is, and take a stand against it. Otherwise we are doomed. I'm going to bet on being doomed. Americans are far too selfish to fight for anything besides themselves. Thats just how they wanted us fat, docile, selfish fucking pigs. Thats exactly what this country is full of.

One of the most pathetic things I've read is.... "My life sucks, I'd kill myself but I'm afraid to go to hell." You should just kill yourself. The only Hell ...

Parents are separating

I am going to be 18 soon and I've registered to a college to do my first degree. Anyway, my parents has been on and off since I was in elementary school. I learned how to lived with it. I have two younger brothers. I am the eldest and the only daughter. I love my dad and my mum equally but I dont get to see my dad much. My dad is an alcoholic but he has a business. It used to be good but lately, the business ran out of money. My mum on the other hand does almost everything without consoling my dad. She trust a man and somehow gave most of her money to the man, like an investment towards something that she doesnt even know about hoping that the man will give her more money. My two brothers are still in high school and my parents are broke. Today my dad said he is going to divorce my mum and the house that Im living in will be catered. I dont know whom to rely on. I cant stop thinking about my brothers as they are younger than me. I dont know how I am going to survive this. I dont even have the money right now to pay for the first semester in college. I dont talk about my problems to my friends. I keep everything to myself. Heck, I dont even feel like telling my brothers about this problem but its killing me inside. I am not pretty and I do not have much friends either. I have to let this out of my chest and i found this freaking website. It hurts me so much. I am usually strong but right now, I just feel so weak. so fucking weak, that I cant even protect myself. I feel useless in a way too somehow. I want everyting to be back to normal and the term "normal" to me means years back ago when I was in kindergarten. I guess that was the only time that I actually have a normal functional family.

I hate myself. Or my life.

I wanted to be a doctor since young. I've got good grades in A level, 3As, 1B, 1C but screwed the chances to get into Medicine because:-

i. One of my friend (sucker-he got 2@1A) told me he put Biomed in hope to transfer to Medicine in 2nd year. God knows why i listened to him, or even asked about his choices. And i put biomed in one out of eighth of my university choices. The result came out, many friends got medicine, and i got Biomed!!
ii. My parents were fighting for my university expenses, out of fear and blame myslf, i told them i will study Biomed and forget about med.

After i get my Biomed degree, I still think of Medicine. Just, shame on me that i've never thought to save money on own to realise the dream. I jz spend and spend and spend. Each time i talk to my family about it, they talked me off and discouraged me. Or they pretend to agree but talk and talk and talk until in the end i changed my mind...

I hated my life, hate why i couldn't let go of that thought, hate that i'm not brave enough to pursue my dream and just let to believe that situation will be better by believing my mom's word.

Life sucks BIG Time!

Nobody wants to be in this world like me. I am Special Needs. Born that way and I am not even happy in life. I have had been beaten up alot of times by family over the years. I have had only 3 gfs in my ever life! I look at Porn and I only get lets say 5-6 sleep per night. I had work for the newspaper and my mother wanted to make me quit them both. My mother wanted me to quit my the next doors lawn.

My mother does not let me out with a short leesh per say. I can't not even work for a mile is that sad? I cannot have any passions over life or I get beaten over it. I get beat up for saying the wrong thing. I get beat becasuse i'm here and i'm here in my house. I can never get a job College will not let me in. Heck, even Wal Mart will not let me have a job. I am trying but others are failing me lol. I can only do so much. Heck even the Service Store will not let me work because i'm Special Needs. Even going to BOCES going in a program for school I have to fight to get in. Delyed in some areas I wish I never was like this. I am a smart person but others do not let me try. I am 20 years old. Might as well get to used to life sucks might as well enjoy it because I will never have a life! I have to enjoy that!

continuation on why love is meaningless

Ok someone told me that not everyone cheats on eachother. I never said that. I said that people have the urges to cheat. There is a difference, some people have restraint. But I think that supports my theory on how love, relations, or intimacy is meaningless. Knowing that both people in a relationship have the temptation to cheat, it shows lack of companionship. What's funny is that it's getting worse every year. Thanks to the current role models... but let me explain how the love process REALLY works.

It's all traced back many years ago when hunting and gathering were the only jobs available (that's more than today har har har). Well there is always the alpha male, the one who was the best hunter. This male got first pick on the women (plural because he had many), the reason for this is because women search for security. Yup that's it, security. A male who was good at hunting would be better at protecting and supporting the family and producing stronger offspring. (Sounds like natural selection to me). The less valuable hunters were not as successful.

Lets convert this idea to todays standards. What do women want? Confidence. Confidence is important for social interaction. If a woman was with a confident male she would feel better supported socially.

This focus's on the female really. As for the male, the more social he is the more women he expects to get. He is the alpha male you know... The alpha male would usually go f...

My life sucks... I think....

Well... Now i'm 16 year's old and i'm... fat as hell... I have only a two friends... i didnt have a normal childhood... i hate my father... everyone is making fun off me... i can't go in public because people are always looking at me and making fun off me or just looking at me like i'm some freak...
I'm sorry for my poor english...

inside my head

hello, i read a few of these and half of them i dont beleve. here is my story
my life sucks i have no friends at all i never have in school i was always pickd on made fun of my mom in a whore and a drugy i remeber everynight she had a new man in her bed while my dad was away working all week he would come home on the weekends only and he would drink and party do drugs and lock us kids out side most of the time. at the age of 16 i got my 1st BF i met him when his faimly moved in across the street he was rollerblading our eyes met and it was love at 1st sight and i thought my life was turning around but he raped me after it was over i forgave him and stayd wit him cuz it was fault anyway i shoulda just had sex i feel as tho now sex is no big deal i lived a very shelted life i didnt even know about condoms i was never allowed computer time back then and i never talkd to anyone so i was alone he was a light in the dark then i found out i was prego he claimd he thought i was on the pipll and thats why i never complaind about not usen a condom but i didnt know what it was. he told my dad over the phone one night about it my dad was pissed being that i was under 18 my dad was respondsabe for my medical bills he didnt beleve in welfare either so i had no insurence of anykind never been to the docter before that moment in my life so my dad had a solution he went to a friend of his named richard and offerd me to him he gave my dad around 5k for my hand in marriage my dad gave m...

i don't know nemore

My mom is a pill head and i have 7 other brother and sisters. ever since i was little i had to grow up fast. we never had the advantages like others witch was constantly thrown in my face every time we stepped outside. I just graduated high school witch is a big accomplishment for my family...i had plans of going to college but something happened and i dont know how to fix it now. And i can't find a job, im loosing my best friends, im alienating myself and i can't seem to stop doing it, i just don't know anymore I really don't and i really hope my life won't always be that way. i dont think i have the energy to handle it.

thanks for letting me complaining

what do i do now?

i am an iraq veteran who lost both of my legs in 2004 in a roadside bomb by those fucking taliban assholes. can't work anymore, not getting very much disability to get by. my wife left me and i really miss her but i understand. my family is always busy and don't come over to visit much. what is next for me? is this my reward for serving my country? *sigh*

I blame myself

I was driving with with my sister and one of my freinds in the and itwas raining heavy hail thunder ,ightning the whole nine yards. I was hard to see becuase how heavy the rain was falling and faster than I could get wipers to go. It was also night which addds an entire dergree of difficulty to drive in hravy rain. I lost control of the car I must hydroplained. the car lafte the rod and I went down an imbankment. I was able to walk away from the accident but I satied my freind was sertiously injuredd and my sister got the worsed of the accident she was in a coma. My sister passed away few days later. My freind recovered she does not blame me for the accident but it is my fualt. It plays over in my head. I should have stopped and gave the strom a chane to pass. If I did my Sister would be alive. I bame myself. I thiught if I could make it to my freind shouse we would stay the night there. I will never see y sister becuase ofwhat I did. My life will suck with out my sister. Her was Linda.

Yeah I hate my life...

Lets start with the cliche: "My life fucking sucks!". I know many people have it much worse but i just want to put my situation out there.

I'm 22 years old right now and doing absolutely nothing with my life. Depression and social anxiety keep me from doing anything more than sitting on my ass all day. In fact, i wouldn't call it social anxiety, i would call it a social phobia. I have my diploma and a decent GPA but my depression keeps me from pursuing any career because i simply don't care. I lost my job at Quizno's about six months ago and my social phobia keeps me from even walking in to a store to apply for a job. It makes me avoid people or any situation where i may need to socialize. I feel like i come off as a weird, crazy looking person. It's not people i fear its the rejection and judgment and it drives me insane. Combine that with seeing no point in living and you've got a concoction for disaster.

I wish I knew exactly where my severe social phobia was rooted. To pinpoint the moments in my life that brought these feelings about would be enlightening, though I don't see how they would help me overcome the phobia itself. I'm already tired of typing this stupid thing. I don't know why I find it so god damn hard to be normal. I've heard people say “Just stick with it!”. I've heard them say “You need to just be yourself.”. The problem is, I find that every time I try to act “normal” it comes off as phony and pathetic. As for “sticking with it”, as ...

My husband hit me

Just last night, we fought (PHYSICALLY).

I punched him. He kicked me.

He kicked me in my chest that I flew. And he kicked me on my thigh as though we are doing thai boxing.

I never thought it would turn out this way.

Help me somebody.

I dont know what to do next.

He is not apologetic. He thinks I was the one who irritated him to behave this way.

I dont know what to do.
Should I just pretend nothing has happened? And live life as per normal with him? Or should I demand an apology?

Utterly Sad...

hmm

Well.. have you ever wondered what its like to have no emotions well i have none! You have no idea how it is to feel no happiness or sadness i was read in the stories of people geting raped and doped up but i still felt nothing. so take for granted you have emotions even thou they might be mostly sadness! i will probally die alone and hopefully soon!

Rosie

Life sucks, Its like everday is on repeat! Same things over & over again!
My family dosent give a fuck about me, my neighborhood is shitty,
im failing in school & my grades are going down! my dad isnt supporting me anymore & i have no friends. Im thinking about meeting some guys on the internet & maybe live with them?
I dont give a fuck if there a rapist ive been raped before its not that bad.
Just trying to get the fuck out of here.

fuck life fuck this world fuck every fucking thing

i hate this bullshit excuse of a life that i have. seriously am i meant to be fucking greatful for this pile of fucking shit/. every fucking boyf i have ever had has shown his true colours and turned out to be a fucking piece of shit. is it too much to ask for one true day of complete happiness. evry thing i think i want ends up fucked up. i fucking hate it all. i would trade my whole life just to be any where but fucking here. all i want is to get married and have a fucking baby but even that is too much to ask from my good for enough piece of shit sorry excuse of a man boyfriend,.

I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS AND MY FAMILY DOESN'T UNDERSTAND ME

I'm 14 years old. Girl. And nobody understands me. Me and my parents never never understood well . We almost always fight and it turns out really bad. I've never had a boyfriend. Not to tell that I never got my first kiss. I don't have like best friends. I had, but than I found out how fake they were...I'm not shy at all , I love music and dancing is my life...But somehow I just feel like I don't belong to this world. Like no one understands me. I have a friend , well I had , because he doesn't talks to me anymore. We were so close , like he knew everything about me. I felt like I can trust him . But for some reasons now he ignores me . Well , his best friend told him that I might be in love with him , which is not true at all , and we talked about it , and I guess this isn't the problem for why he ignores me. But anyway , I'm not the best at school and my parents make me stupid and bitch almost all the time. I don't really go out because I'm the type of girl who loves to stay home , watch a movie and eat popcorn . I always loved to help people and make them smile even just for a second. And I did helped many kids and persons. But now I feel like I'm a totally looser and I don't know what to do about it. So MY LIFE SUCKS.

Parole of my rapist

I any of you remmber i posted on May 29 about my rape I have the he will be parolled. Now I am very afraid. I don't if he come here to rape me again or if he is reformeed or not. If iwas on that baord he still be in prision.

enough already

Trying to stand on MY feet again. After losing everything i ever loved and been through the most difficult times of my life, here i am, determined to win this time. Have been crying over the past 2 hours, thinking how i messed up my life during the last years. I cant take another rejection, ive had enough. I lost my way in life and experienced very bad things since i was 17. When i managed to fix things on some level, then i lost my average job. It was a hell. Have been through several interviews, never made it. Tomorrow is my next one. Cant stand it if i fail again. Its a nightmare, i need this job. I need at least a job, i dont even want to mention stuff about my personal life. If only this area of my life will be alright so that ill focus on fixing my personal life as well. It sucks, i need a chance! Just one chance!

*sigh*

Not, I just want to say, before I start with my "Story about how life sucks", I want to make it perfectly clear that my problems ARE NOT as bad as other peoples problems. My problems are a tiny, tiny dark pinprick on the stain that is "Life Sucking".

It's not so much a problem, as a "Lost and Confused, seeking Internet help!" type thing. It's mostly just to get it of my chest. I'm 16, Male, and living rather comfortably. Got a roof, got food (If a bit TOO much, if you catch my drift..) fresh water, etc. Semi-loving family, my brother is a dick, but w/e, but beyond that, it's rather....unpleasant.

Call it nit-picking, or somesuch, but I'd say a good portion of the people I know are either incredibly stuck-up, annoying, mopey, and or simply high a good amount of time. Or, in some cases, all of the above. Maybe to others I'm one of these. Maybe most of them. Perhaps all of them.

The small number, the precious, precious few, that don't exhibit such tendencies, at least, in public, are the small group of people I have the pleasure of calling friends. As for the others, I don't say anything TO them about how a few about them, civil discussions, for the most part, but nothing more.

In the common stereotype hierarchy of High-schools, one would classify me, and a good number of my friends as the "Nerds". This automatically puts us at odds with a good number of the other portions of the Hierarchy, specifically the "Higher Ups", the "Jocks" and...

Seven Years

I dont know how to put this. I have been away from my old dad and mom for seven straight years. I dont have the money to pay for my doctorate degree fees. I cannot seem to get a job. And have severe depression. I guess my problem is nothing compared to some others.