| Posted by Just Me at July 1, 2012 |
I married a cheating sneak....even though I had wanted to call of our wedding I didn't want my friends and family to think badly of me..during our honeymoon I found out he was still cheating telling his random internet hookups he was on vacation with his friends..its been 10 years and I still can't trust him and every additional day it kills me slowly....we have a son whom I love and can't leave behind...I hate my life and feel as if I've been put on this earth to just suffer...I was molested by my stepfather as a child and no matter how many "hints" I gave my mom she never got me or she didn't care...at 7 years old I would leave books about telling ur parents with pages folded to certain areas..she never even asked me about it...at 12 I tried killing myself but only ended throwing up (I guess I didn't know how to truly attempt it) at one point I had the courage to tell my uncle what was going on, they decided to have a family meeting on this where my grandmother told me its not a child place to try to seperate their parents.....I hate my life so much I can't wait till its over, I don't want to commit suicide in the offchance their is a heaven and I mess my chances of having somewhat of a decent afterlife....this is just a piece of why I hate my life |
| Posted by yolo at July 1, 2012 |
My life has been nothing but a mess. I feel like I am the only person living in the whole wide world and no one understands me. I fail at almost everything. I am not smart,I only passed most of my exam papers even after studying so hard for it. I don't have that many friends. Only one or two that stick around. Been bullied at high school and been looked down upon by many top achievers. Always the one to be picked on in a group and this seems to be true in every new group i find. Perhaps there is something wrong with me? I really don't know. I try to tell myself i am a nice person and i will treat people around me with respect. my father left my mother when i was really young and my mom and step-dad had raised me up. I was beaten as a child but i wouldn't blame my mother because she was feeling really pressured. Nevertheless, i tried to help her (as a very young child) in her business because i knew my responsibility as a son. Sometimes i would even go as far as buying food for the poor. i lack that emotional subtance because as a very young kid i was always "contained" by my parent. For example, whatever i said never stood in my favour and I would get beaten for that. because of this, i find it difficult to really communicate my thoughts effectively to the people around me , there is always this sense of fear. One moment i can be a very enthusiastic person and the next i can be very sad, quiet and unmotivated. As a young child, these are the reasons that brought me closer... |
| Posted by anonymous at July 1, 2012 |
I am a 41 year old male. Married my high school sweetheart at 20, we have a beautiful 19 year old girl. My mother died of cancer when I was 7 so I was 'raised' by my father - a retired Marine Corps colonel. I became a golf professional at 20. I lived that lifestyle of alcohol abuse, gambling, out all night. My wife had no choice but to leave. I continued my self-abusive behavior, but never had a drink around my daughter and paid my child support. When I was 30, I was sick of this phony lifestyle so I went back college and earned 2 bachelors degree and a master's degree in economics.
My last semester, I had a seizure and was told I had a malignant brain tumor that was incurable and will kill me. I went through all of the surgeries and chemotherapy.
I lost most of my analytical and quantitative abilities because of brain damage, so I have no chance of working in the statistics or economics field. I am on disability and medicare and work partime at a golf course. I experience frequent seizures and severe memory loss. I have just found out I have an aggresive strain of Staph infection in my spine and brain.
I cannot drive because of seizures, I have no assets. I have nothing to offer society. I'm just ready to get this life over with. |
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